[TGBTG]

Oh bro, I can feel the pain in your words from where I'm at. I wish I was living close to you (South TX over here). You need some refreshing.

You know what I think you need right now, just to get out of the house and just hang out...u know, just to hang out with genuine friends that can listen to you and just have a good time.

I know what u feel like when u try something to make you feel temporarily better but in the end makes you feel worse and lonely than before...and then you just loose all energy and motivation to keep going, kwim?

(And being single doesn't help either...speaking from experience...lol)

Honestly bro, in times like this, "just pray" or "just read the bible" does not cut it BECAUSE, you can't even find enough strength to pray.

But I think you should just go hang out tonight, u know. Go somewhere u usually do not frequent like try a whole bunch of different churches, or different fun activities in your area over the next week. Just meeting new people could be refreshing to the soul, bro.

And then when you get back home from trying new activities, just muzzle up as much energy as you have to literally "JUST SPEAK TO GOD" (whether you can feel him or not). Be brutal honest with him about you feel. Yell if you feel like, cry if you feel like, just literally speak to him like he was standing in front of you physically bro.

And after, crash and sleep...lol

Keep us posted.

Love you bro, I'll be praying for you...