[acerrak]

There is no easy way to approach this. My wife still has issues with depression. She will tell me have you ever felt so alone in a bunch of people. Her depression can get bad to even suicidal thoughts and not the first time.

Can i recommend something to you. Just go for a walk, put some music in and walk. exercise your body alittle. You need to do something physical, when you have bottled sruff like this up for so long you need to get a outlet, this can come in different forms but even with the stress of your job and bills, a physical exercize can truely help you.

I would also look for free help and counseling outside the church walls. the worst thing to do is nothing...