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Originally Posted by JaneEyre
There are those who would tell me I am backslidden. I no longer attend church regularly. My last experience in church ended in my trust being violated by preachers. Don't ask for details. I'm not looking for pity or even empathy. I don't want to be viewed as a victim and I'm not wanting to discredit anyone. I would never relate specifics on a forum.
My desire for God and church is not gone. I still believe I have a relationship with God but I am afraid and reluctant to try to begin again with a group of believers.
Do I know Christ? Yes. Do I love Him? Yes. Do I want to serve Him? Yes.
This has continued for months. The only road home is back to Calvary - to look at the sacrifice and know it was personally for me but I can't live at the foot of Calvary. I am told I need to go back to church. Back to where the knives were placed into my back. Will someone please tell me that the wounds will someday heal?
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I'm affraid the church is much like the world. There are good pastors and there are bad pastors. there are good people and there are bad people. I think that anyone that has been in church for very long has had some bad experiences. I could tell a few stories myself. But you need to find a good church will good people and there are many of those. The longer you stay out the harder it will be to go back. So find one soon. God and prayer can heal the hurt.