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Originally Posted by OneAccord
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First, thank you all for your prayers. Even those who didn't leave a reply. I know in my heart you are praying.
We're back home. Came back last night. She can go at anytime. The tumor is inoperable... chemo might help some, but, the Dr. says we have to decide by Thursday to:
1) Stop chemo and let her go.
or
2) Begin a higher dose of chemo that will prolong her suffering and will yeild the same results. Death. Her life may be extended... but, well, it won't be a life...it'll be an existence. Barely.
I need to know what to do. I don't know. She headaches are getting worse. She is almost completely immobilized. The Lord seems to be speaking this to my spirit: Phl 1:23 For I am in a strait betwixt two, having a desire to depart, and to be with Christ; which is far better:
Is He giving us the answer? Just, pray that we will make the decision that pleases the Lord whom we trust.
We found out recently that we will be grandparents again. Found out yesterday that we will have a granddaughter this May. Also found out that, unless the Lord moves, Lola will never see the baby. He is good. His wisdom...His grace... His will is what we rely on and trust.
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OA, this is the most difficult circumstance that one can be in, and it's something I deal with in others every day. I'm so sorry that I don't have words to say that will take the sorrow from you.
Is your wife still able to make decisions? If so, speak to her about her wishes. Also, if you are able (and if not, see if there is someone else who can do it), prepare her and yourself for her final days. Ask her if there is anything she wants to do or say and write things down.
You said that you have a grandbaby due in a few months. She can be there through letters if she's not there in body. If she is comfortable in speaking about her own funeral, find out what she'd like to wear or what she would like someone to sing.
If you can't do these things, see if there is someone who can. This might be important for her.
OA, I apologize if it seems that I have no faith that God will heal her, because that's not the issue here. But as a nurse, I deal with reality, so I speak in those terms to others. But I am praying for God's will to be done all the same.
I wish I were closer to be there for you both.