[Joseph Miller]

If you think I have always agreed with my pastor on every little issue you are mistaken. I am hard headed. I have had a hard time learning about submission. I didn't want to submit. Because I wouldn't submit I didn't walk in the place of spiritual authority that I could have. As long as I bucked against the authority of the one above me I was very limited in my own authority.

I have to say that I agree with the original post on this thread. When you don't agree with leadership it don't mean that we run out and do our own thing. I tried that and for years it hurt my ministry and in some areas I may never recover. I know I can with the help of God. He is working on me. He is changing me. For a little over a year now I have been back under authority. I have submitted to him. He is not my preacher, he is my pastor. There is a difference. I may never agree with everything he says, does or asks of me but I have made a commitment to God that as long as there is no compromise of doctrine I will remain and submit.

I may be to open in my post but I have walked the road of "I will do my own thing". It is a road that only leads to hurt and disappointment. I am glad that when I realized that it wasn't working, it would never work that I had an open door to return to where I should have never left.

I love my pastor and I support him. He is more than just a pastor he is like my father. I am glad that when I went to him and asked him to forgive me of the way I left and the things I said and did that he forgave. It is now like I never left. I won't leave now until God moves me somewhere else, but he will confirm to me that it is God. If my authority don't feel like it is the move to make then I will remain where I am and keep a right spirit.

Just for the record, my opinion on the "whys" of Tusla is shared with by my pastor.