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Originally Posted by OneAccord
Around me, all is calm. The house is quiet.... peace, which, at other times, would be welcomed, is all around me.
But, inside, all is not calm or quiet, nor it peaceful. I find the calmness, the quiet and the peace unsettling. It keeps me awake at night.
I have freedom. I can do what I want to do- go where I want to go. The problem is, I don't want that freedom. I don't want to do- don't want to go. Strange, isn't it? The very things people want and need in life are the very things I now consider enemies of my soul.
Today is a clear, warm day. Got lots to do- got places to go. People to see. But- nothing means nothing. I can go to any restaurant- but don't want to eat.
Yes, the Spirit brings calm. He speaks Peace, be still. But, inward, there is turmoil. A restlessness that the calm, the quiet and peace around me only enhances. It makes it worse.
I come to this Forum a hundred times a day, I pray... I seek something to fill the inside with the calm around me. But the calm on the outside just reminds me how empty I feel.
"This is normal", they tell me. "This is to be expected". "It'll pass".
Its a bright, warm, sunny day. Calm quiet and peace surround me.
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Rick, I wish I had the words to make this better for you...words fail me.
And I cannot say I know how you feel...that would not be true, for I do not.
All I can give you is the Word...Jesus said, "Peace I leave with you,
my peace I give unto you..."
The Spirit of Peace is IN you, but is overshadowed by your grief and loneliness. But He is there, Rick...and so are we.
