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Wow. For the seconfd time tonight, I've got tears in my eyes. But this time, those tears have been running down my face.

The other night, I had a dream. I dreamed I had caught a little bird and put it in a cage. It was a song bird and I wanted to hear it sing all the time, so I hung the cage on my porch. But the bird never made a sound. It just sat there. So... I turned it loose and it flew up into the tree and began singing for all it was worth.

As some know, I lost my Lola on Feb. 6. Its been a rough year. But, I was determined to hold on to Lola until Feb. 6, '09. Then I would take off my wedding band and let her go. I've wanted to see Lola again in a dream. Or hear her voice. But... I've had no dreams but one or two. But its been awhile. So heres the dream: Lola is the bird. I have had her caged in my grief. When I let her go... she will be free and then can come to me in my memories. I had decided that Christmas morning, I'd go to the cemetary and spend one more Christmas with her. There, I would take off my wedding band and let her go.

But... I wasn't sure. Was this the right thing to do? I prayed about it. Then I read Renda's poem. That was Lola. She was telling me that its time. Thank you Renda for sharing this. I know now this is what Lola would want. Y'all pray for me. I think this will be the hardest thing I have ever done in my life.