[Esther]

Originally Posted by Apprehended

I see what you are saying Sis.

It is a mystery to me as well. I don't understand why God does some of the things that he does. All I can say is that I must recall the scripture that says "...as high as the heavens are above the earth, so is my ways above yours." His thoughts are very often very far past finding out.

All I know is that we are cautioned to walk softly before God. Blind fools will rush in where angels fear to tread. There comes a time that we must mature to the point that we must not joke, complain, take lightly the things of God lest his fellowship in whatever capacity that he fellowshipped with us in times past, be lifted.

That is why anyone who turns their back on God, walks away into sin, taking up a love for the world, can never come back and be in the same relationship with God as before. True, they can be forgiven. True they can have sweet communion with God. True, seemingly everything is as it was before...but the truth is...things will forever be different. That first relationship will never be restored in the same manner as before.

This is why I caution those who are tempted to turn back into the world to think it over very, very carefully. When, and if you can find your way back (many cannot find their way back) things will forever be different.

What you have said for the most part is probably true, however, my personal experience is I had a greater walk and relationship with God. Could be because I was older and more mature.