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you know Sis. Nahkoe, I believe that you are honestly searching out the scriptures and really do want answers. On the same note, I think we just have to keep in mind that our ways are NOT God's ways, we are not going to understand everything we read, the gospel as a whole cannot be logically and scientifically explained. What would be the purpose of faith? Most of it we can by studying and hearing the preached word of God. Prayer along with your study is absolutely essential, else we fall into false doctrine. I don't believe when it comes to faith and rewards that we should question why should I believe or why should I want the reward.. The bottom line is that He died for us and has given us a chance to have new life and believe His promises by faith, instead of demanding a sign our part is to just believe. If we are not even open to something, we won't experience all that God has for us, He is still a gentleman. Yield yourself, and the questions will be answered in time if you have the faith!