[Godsdrummer]

Ok

Having read almost all the post from page one I did not see any who truely has gone through what you are going through. But I will say take all the positive adivice given it all was good, throw the rest away it was garabage. I mean that too, if the advice has some negative forget it. I say this because I did go thru just what you are going through. Only I was the one raised in UPCI. I carried license and was pastoring etc. So not only did I have leadership in the church but also in the organization. Now for the bad news it took me 15 years from the time I first saw the hypocricy of the standards, before I left UPCI.

So take this time to increse your relationship with God, always check your own spirit.

I have much more to say just realized I have to get ready for work will try and get back on tonight.

God Bless and keep the faith.