Soooo you basically lied and manipulated the sympathies of observers to formulate hatred against someone else?
Dude that ain't cool.
It's not cool that you did that and it's not cool HOW you did that.
My wife has/had PTSD and the fear of her killing herself was a constant fear for me...Had MAJOR self harm issues and will carry severe scars for the rest of her life.
I'm mischievous as heck and have a wicked sense of humor but I don't mess with people about that sort of thing and you wouldn't either had you ever worked calls like that like I have and have any sort of empathy.
It's not us you need to apologise to....Make it right with him and God.