I feel so awful for you. This must be so hard. But I have a question, and I hope it won't seem too personal. Were your folks really sociable people? Were they really shy? Were they the life of the party? I ask because I have never been lonely in my life. I do get lonely for specific people who have gone on to Heaven before me, but I just don't get lonesome. I think it is because I come from a long line of very, very shy people. They did a lot of things they enjoyed that were solitary pursuits. We loved to sew and draw and paint and write,
go fishing alone, etc. Some of us were easily hurt, some weren't.
Before I got married I was always looking for ways to be alone so that I could go on nature walks or just watch the clouds or do my watercolors. And of course it was a wonderful chance for Bible study. I was my happiest just by myself. I am beginning to wonder if there is not a genetic component to all of this. I have heard that studies do indeed indicate that shyness is hereditary.
If your folks always needed people around them, that might explain some of it. I worked with a woman who would literally run to the TV to turn it on when she came in her front door. She was petrified of feeling she was by herself.
If I could send you some of my immunity to loneliness, I would do it in a heartbeat. Hope you feel better very, very soon. You do this anyway, but keep trying to realize that He is always right there beside you. Talk to Him, tell Him about your day. He is indeed the "friend that sticketh closer than a brother."
Psalm 73:23-24: Nevertheless I am continually with thee: thou hast holden me by my right hand. Thou shalt guide me with thy counsel, and afterward receive me to glory.