Worse conversation evah!

[houston]

Jesus, "Do you agape me?"

Me: "I phileo you."

*awkward silence*

[Dedicated Mind]

you've been hanging with bbyrd too much?

[houston]

Originally Posted by Dedicated Mind

you've been hanging with bbyrd too much?

Stupid. Lol. I'm not stoned and I haven't had a drop of whiskey in weeks. It wasn't a real convo. Just something that has been playing out in my thoughts.

Jesus loves me and all I can say is, "I like you."

I don't see that changing, because I don't know how to fix it.

I hate thinking when I'm sober.

[Monterrey]

You need some deliverance.

[houston]

Originally Posted by Monterrey

You need some deliverance.

Be quiet, Mexican!

[UnTraditional]

Houston, I was once like that. The differnce maker for me came when I looked at my life, saw the Cross given for me, His blood, His life, and then I saw how unworthy I was to receive such a gift. That is when the Spirit showed me, that He loved me anyway. Friend, let me share something really intimate spiritually that happened to me a while back.

It is no secret that a few years back, I lost my Dad. Last July, I almost lost my Mom in a work related accident. I never forgot how Jesus loved me, but I thought that I cold carry this heavy load, and I could not. I remember sitting in this very chair I am sitting in now, and crying out to Christ. As I cried out to Jesus to help, through my tears, I saw a vision of the exact things that were happening, seeing my own self crying, and suddenly I saw the Lord descend behind me. He ran through the room, and grabbed me, embracing me, and held me telling me how it was all going to be all right. What was so amazing, the fact that I physically felt His arms around me, holding me as a Father would His weeping child.

houston, one day, I would like to have supper with you, and take time to pray in person for you. We both live in Houston, so the distance would not even be a problem. If you agree, PM me, and we'll get the date and time worked out.

[bbyrd009]

Originally Posted by Dedicated Mind

you've been hanging with bbyrd too much?

[bbyrd009]

Originally Posted by houston

Stupid. Lol. I'm not stoned and I haven't had a drop of whiskey in weeks. It wasn't a real convo. Just something that has been playing out in my thoughts.

Jesus loves me and all I can say is, "I like you."

I don't see that changing, because I don't know how to fix it.

I hate thinking when I'm sober.

Doubt I can help;
"Count the cost, He whom He loves, He flays," etc. I've realized that we are being tested to breakdown, to "failure;" at which point we are able to learn some tiny little bit, which makes us proud (and useless) again, so that frame of mind is tested to failure; etc.

You have an out, tho; just stop playing this out in your thoughts!
Fill your head with video games or something. A doctor can give
you a pill/chemical lobotomy for that. Whatever.

Also, there is a time for everything, and
this just seems to be a time for that,
what you describe. I'm not scared for you at all.
I'm scared for the "successful" Christians I know;
plenty of $, no worries (no time to volunteer),
turning away when they should be turning toward, etc.
Family members. Maybe I'm mistaken in them, I don't know-
-not my biz.

I'll keep you in my prayers. I recommend staying in
Ecclesiastes, and when you get to "Arg, I hate You,"
you should be able to see this for what it is.
Don't deny, just slows it down. You have to admit
something to lose it. You will not hurt God. Etc.
Peace!

[houston]

God has nevah failed me. Yet, I'm guarded with Him. I know He won't hurt me, but I'm afraid to be hurt.

[houston]

Video games are for children.