nahkoe
07-30-2009, 05:07 PM
I absolutely hate asking for prayer, but...
This semester has been a rough one. I knew going in that the class load was going to take everything I had, especially combined with the kids and working full time too. It has.
And in addition...my grandma died 2 weeks before the semester started. Not all that unexpected given her health and age, but the family dynamic comes into play in a big way with this and I've been processing things and hurting from this.
Then I've had some personal things going on that have taken time and resources. I have gone, privately, to some here and requested prayer for this. Thank you. I know y'all have been praying and it's made a huge difference.
Yesterday comes the crushing blow, though. I found out that a friend of mine committed suicide last week. (this was confirmed today Margie) She left 5 children behind, her baby was born in March.
I keep trying to type more and there are no words. There are tears, lots and lots of tears.
Right now my heart hurts so bad. I can't even look at my kids without breaking down into tears. Please, please, please pray for her babies. The circumstances leading to her decision haven't gone away, and now her babies are left in these situations without their mama fighting for them, praying for them, and protecting them as best as she could.
And please pray for me. I was reaching the point where I just didn't have anything left to give before this. This has completely dropped the bottom out of my world. I have to finish this semester, there are 2 weeks and 4 tests left. Failing these courses will impact financial aid and that's not an option as a single mom in school. I have to finish, but I don't know where I'm going to pull resources from to do that.
This semester has been a rough one. I knew going in that the class load was going to take everything I had, especially combined with the kids and working full time too. It has.
And in addition...my grandma died 2 weeks before the semester started. Not all that unexpected given her health and age, but the family dynamic comes into play in a big way with this and I've been processing things and hurting from this.
Then I've had some personal things going on that have taken time and resources. I have gone, privately, to some here and requested prayer for this. Thank you. I know y'all have been praying and it's made a huge difference.
Yesterday comes the crushing blow, though. I found out that a friend of mine committed suicide last week. (this was confirmed today Margie) She left 5 children behind, her baby was born in March.
I keep trying to type more and there are no words. There are tears, lots and lots of tears.
Right now my heart hurts so bad. I can't even look at my kids without breaking down into tears. Please, please, please pray for her babies. The circumstances leading to her decision haven't gone away, and now her babies are left in these situations without their mama fighting for them, praying for them, and protecting them as best as she could.
And please pray for me. I was reaching the point where I just didn't have anything left to give before this. This has completely dropped the bottom out of my world. I have to finish this semester, there are 2 weeks and 4 tests left. Failing these courses will impact financial aid and that's not an option as a single mom in school. I have to finish, but I don't know where I'm going to pull resources from to do that.