The Matt
01-24-2012, 08:24 PM
This is just a thread I'm gonna post a lil spiritual life journal on, so I can have something to look back on and see where I was, see my spiritual growth, and put my prayer requests here too. Not an everyday thing. I appreciate and welcome encouragement. and if this encourages anyone, praise God for double blessings!
Ok let's see....Well I'm not gonna make this a testimony, I'm just going to say Jesus delivered me from misery incarnate. If I get out of church, I slip, thats a gimme. I came back to church and started caring about God again in the first week of December 2011. I feel like december til now was just a struggle to get into the groove, no real breakthroughs, not many convictions, struggling to pray, fast, read the word. This morning I had my first real breakthrough, even this morning I thought it was just a one time thing, but tonight at prayer meeting it was confirmed. I struggle to pray, I've got a hyperactive mind, just wants to go all over when I want it to concentrate on something. During prayer especially, just keeping my eyes from wandering and my mind from drifting takes a lot of willpower. Well this morning, I just got lost in prayer, I didn't have to think about what I was praying, I didn't even really have to put forth an effort, it just...happened. The phrase "let go and let God" comes to mind. Like I said, I just thought welp beginners luck. Well, I went to prayer meeting tonight, and I settled down to pray, I went to the alter and started repenting, and for the first time in like....to be honest probably the first time ever, I felt a true, honest need to pray for people other than myself. Now to me, you go to the alter to repent, then you go back to your seat to pray. But tonight, it just felt like the right place. I started laying my prayers for friends of mine, family of mine, I didn't think one single time about anything for myself. It just completely clicked, the prayer flowed. It came naturally, and it just felt...right. It never felt that way for me before. All prayer. I normally check the clock like every 15 minutes. I didn't think about the clock but one time, on my way to get a drink of water. When I checked the clock, I had ten minutes left to prayer meeting! I'm taking this morning and tonight as a sign, I reached a new level in my prayer life! I claim it in Jesus name!
Ok let's see....Well I'm not gonna make this a testimony, I'm just going to say Jesus delivered me from misery incarnate. If I get out of church, I slip, thats a gimme. I came back to church and started caring about God again in the first week of December 2011. I feel like december til now was just a struggle to get into the groove, no real breakthroughs, not many convictions, struggling to pray, fast, read the word. This morning I had my first real breakthrough, even this morning I thought it was just a one time thing, but tonight at prayer meeting it was confirmed. I struggle to pray, I've got a hyperactive mind, just wants to go all over when I want it to concentrate on something. During prayer especially, just keeping my eyes from wandering and my mind from drifting takes a lot of willpower. Well this morning, I just got lost in prayer, I didn't have to think about what I was praying, I didn't even really have to put forth an effort, it just...happened. The phrase "let go and let God" comes to mind. Like I said, I just thought welp beginners luck. Well, I went to prayer meeting tonight, and I settled down to pray, I went to the alter and started repenting, and for the first time in like....to be honest probably the first time ever, I felt a true, honest need to pray for people other than myself. Now to me, you go to the alter to repent, then you go back to your seat to pray. But tonight, it just felt like the right place. I started laying my prayers for friends of mine, family of mine, I didn't think one single time about anything for myself. It just completely clicked, the prayer flowed. It came naturally, and it just felt...right. It never felt that way for me before. All prayer. I normally check the clock like every 15 minutes. I didn't think about the clock but one time, on my way to get a drink of water. When I checked the clock, I had ten minutes left to prayer meeting! I'm taking this morning and tonight as a sign, I reached a new level in my prayer life! I claim it in Jesus name!