I really need Jesus to help me

[JustAVesl]

Hi. I dont know if anyone will read this but I am requesting prayer for a personal situation. A preacher once said, I never heard of «unspoken requests» as many Christians put it in prayer meetings and so on. If someone os asking for prayer, Yes Jesus knows what they need but I don't. I agree to a certain degree that in order for others to pray effectively, touching your need they feel the importance of knowing what the need is. So here goes. I have been married for 8 years. Although it hasnt beem very long we've wanted a child since the beginning. I have had 2 miscarriages, one very late into my pregnancy. Today, my very good friend told me that she is pregnant. Im am excited for them but I cant help but feel pain. I have tried over the years to block these feelings, not hold others' babies, stay away from friends who are pregnant..etc. But recently i've wanted to be strong enough to embrace these blessed moments and rejoice with those who rejoice. TODAY ITS REALLY HARD THOUGH. The pastor may say, trust the Lord, just keep believing and so on but inside im falling apart. Im so hurt that I feel like I just want to die. Im so sick of feeling this way. What did I do wrong? Ive repented daily of any sin, secret sin buried sin etc. What is wrong with me. If the fruit of the womb is a reward why am I being punished? I dont really know what to pray for anymore. Please help me Jesus.

[Amanah]

Precious sister, please don't feel that you have done anything wrong. Understand instead that we are living in an imperfect world.

When you are walking in such pain, that is the time that you really are walking in faith and trusting God.

When you are feeling such deep sorrow, it seems more fitting to cry tears of repentance then to offer songs of praise. But may I suggest that you read the psalms and offer Jesus a sacrifice of praise in your pain so that He can lift your heart and give you the strength you need to stand.

When you feel like you can't pray, you can still tell God that you love Him and trust Him.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=90NVsBUQnQE

[JustAVesl]

Thank you so much for reply. I will do just that. Its true, since I rec'd the news today, all ive wanted to do is cry. I havent even told my husband yet. I truly love this sister of mine. Its just a hard time right now and I would never want her to think that I feel any other way. I just want the Lord to hide us in the secret of His presence.

Your words are so true. I dont want to be an Elijah in the cave.

[Ron]

Ah Sis, I am not a lady but I & my wife have been in similar shoes. We were married for a little over a year when my wife became pregnant! Great news, but three months into the pregnancy she misscarried & while we were recovering from that, one of her friends became pregnant!
There were tears & questions, but through it all we kept trusting in the Lord.
5 months later, she became pregnant & that is my oldest & we have two other kids.
No, you are not being punished & God knows your heart, he knows the hurt, & he knows the longing for a child.
I will be in prayer for you & pray that not only God will comfort you & help you, but that he would grant you the desire of your heart.

PS, one more thing, our firstborn, the one my wife misscarried? It was a girl & she, if came to term, would have been deformed as there was problems with her chromosomes.
I will see her in heaven!

[AreYouReady?]

Hi. I dont know if anyone will read this but I am requesting prayer for a personal situation. A preacher once said, I never heard of «unspoken requests» as many Christians put it in prayer meetings and so on. If someone os asking for prayer, Yes Jesus knows what they need but I don't. I agree to a certain degree that in order for others to pray effectively, touching your need they feel the importance of knowing what the need is. So here goes. I have been married for 8 years. Although it hasnt beem very long we've wanted a child since the beginning. I have had 2 miscarriages, one very late into my pregnancy. Today, my very good friend told me that she is pregnant. Im am excited for them but I cant help but feel pain. I have tried over the years to block these feelings, not hold others' babies, stay away from friends who are pregnant..etc. But recently i've wanted to be strong enough to embrace these blessed moments and rejoice with those who rejoice. TODAY ITS REALLY HARD THOUGH. The pastor may say, trust the Lord, just keep believing and so on but inside im falling apart. Im so hurt that I feel like I just want to die. Im so sick of feeling this way. What did I do wrong? Ive repented daily of any sin, secret sin buried sin etc. What is wrong with me. If the fruit of the womb is a reward why am I being punished? I dont really know what to pray for anymore. Please help me Jesus.

Your post brought tears to my eyes as I remember the feeling of desiring to be a mother. Every month that passed by was a disappointment to me. We have been married for only a little over 2 years, but I was already 30-years-old and did not want to be too old. I was given choices of things to do by the physician, but my husband did not want to go through all of that. He just has faith that either things are meant to be or not meant to be.

Then I read about Hannah in the OT. I know...I know it sounds silly but...I prayed to God about it. I prayed sincerely. I asked God for a child, but I also took my husbands POV into consideration. I told God that if He knows that we would not be good parents and it was not meant for us to have any children, then I would just have to accept His decision. I put it completely into God's hands, emotionally and spiritually.

That very same month I was pregnant.

I asked God for my second child too, through prayer. God granted my second request.

Although I would have liked to have had one more child, I did not ask for a third child...and I have not gotten pregnant ever again. Somehow I knew that I would not have been able to deal with more than two children. God knew it too.

Just my testimony of how God blessed me.

God can bless you too. Please keep faith and put all your trust in Him with this matter.

[KeptByTheWord]

Amanah, Ron, and AYR... all awesome responses and each of your words struck a chord with my heart ...

Sis. JustAVesl, just want you to know that you don't need to be afraid to speak your heart to the Lord at time when you are by yourself, and it is just you and Him... and when you have poured your heart out to Him, then wait for His response back to you. He will bring you comfort when you give Him time to respond as you pray. Just remember prayer is like a conversation, it is a two-way street. I believe that if you wait on God after you've poured out your heart to Him, that a scripture, thought, word... whatever it may be will be spoken to your heart.

Indeed, I'll be praying that you experience something beautiful from the Lord as a result of the sorrow in your heart.

[Michael Phelps]

Hi. I dont know if anyone will read this but I am requesting prayer for a personal situation. A preacher once said, I never heard of «unspoken requests» as many Christians put it in prayer meetings and so on. If someone os asking for prayer, Yes Jesus knows what they need but I don't. I agree to a certain degree that in order for others to pray effectively, touching your need they feel the importance of knowing what the need is. So here goes. I have been married for 8 years. Although it hasnt beem very long we've wanted a child since the beginning. I have had 2 miscarriages, one very late into my pregnancy. Today, my very good friend told me that she is pregnant. Im am excited for them but I cant help but feel pain. I have tried over the years to block these feelings, not hold others' babies, stay away from friends who are pregnant..etc. But recently i've wanted to be strong enough to embrace these blessed moments and rejoice with those who rejoice. TODAY ITS REALLY HARD THOUGH. The pastor may say, trust the Lord, just keep believing and so on but inside im falling apart. Im so hurt that I feel like I just want to die. Im so sick of feeling this way. What did I do wrong? Ive repented daily of any sin, secret sin buried sin etc. What is wrong with me. If the fruit of the womb is a reward why am I being punished? I dont really know what to pray for anymore. Please help me Jesus.

One of the greatest statements I've ever heard is "It's easy to weep with someone, but it's hard to rejoice with them".

Think of how the man who's son was dying in his house must have felt as he stood talking to Jesus, and Jesus said "Yes, I'll come to your house and heal your son", and just as Jesus was ready to start walking, the woman with the issue of blood brushed the hem of his garment. The Bible says Jesus "Turned about in the press", which means he actually turned his back on the man who thought it was HIS turn for a miracle......and the poor man had to stand there and watch as a woman who "cut in line" was healed, and rejoiced......and the man had to stand .... and wait....and try to look happy for someone else's miracle.....and to make matters worse, while that was going on, one of his associates came up to him and whispered in his ear "your son is dead now".....his son died while someone else was gaining life......talk about bitter? Hey Jesus, this is my turn!!! Forget about that woman, she didn't have an appointment! And now, because of this delay, my son is dead! This is SOOOO unfair!!!

But......Jesus turned back around and said, "Ok, now I'm ready....let's go.....your miracle may have been delayed, but not denied.......

Just think if the man would have gotten mad, bitter, stomped off.....he would have missed his miracle......

So, hang in there........delay is not denial!

[Cindy]

One of the greatest statements I've ever heard is "It's easy to weep with someone, but it's hard to rejoice with them".

Think of how the man who's son was dying in his house must have felt as he stood talking to Jesus, and Jesus said "Yes, I'll come to your house and heal your son", and just as Jesus was ready to start walking, the woman with the issue of blood brushed the hem of his garment. The Bible says Jesus "Turned about in the press", which means he actually turned his back on the man who thought it was HIS turn for a miracle......and the poor man had to stand there and watch as a woman who "cut in line" was healed, and rejoiced......and the man had to stand .... and wait....and try to look happy for someone else's miracle.....and to make matters worse, while that was going on, one of his associates came up to him and whispered in his ear "your son is dead now".....his son died while someone else was gaining life......talk about bitter? Hey Jesus, this is my turn!!! Forget about that woman, she didn't have an appointment! And now, because of this delay, my son is dead! This is SOOOO unfair!!!

But......Jesus turned back around and said, "Ok, now I'm ready....let's go.....your miracle may have been delayed, but not denied.......

Just think if the man would have gotten mad, bitter, stomped off.....he would have missed his miracle......

So, hang in there........delay is not denial!

Amen

[imreedemed]

Praying

[MawMaw]

I am praying for you also dear sister.
And welcome to AFF. :)

[JustAVesl]

I am so very thankful to you all for your responses.
Wow. I really feel borne up on all of your shoulders. I believe that this is a valley time for me. Not necessarily a time of being sad or bitter or even mourning, but a time of stillness and quite listening and feeling the Lord. I was particularly sensitive to the Lord's ministering to me today. Every song that I heard spoke of trusting the Lord, knowing that He hears our prayers, believing His love for each of us is infinite and yet FATHERLIKE in the sense of always being the right amount at the right time.

Although this may be a valley experience right now, there is alot of great wonderful things that I am assured are happening in the spiritual.
The Lord has surrounded me with everyone of you. My gift for all of your kindness, love and attention could never come into comparison with what I pray that the Lord will do for all of you.
Thank you all so much.