In Need of Prayer

[Bro Flame]

I know I have a older thread going about another issue I needed you all to help me pray about, but I figured I would start a new one to address some different troubles.

I would greatly you all binding with me in prayer with the following:

First, I am in desperate need of a job. Since I have graduated high school back in May 2016, I have applied for many different jobs, but none of them have followed through. One of the first I applied for, a job at my then-local Fred's, I was actually hired, only to be fired before starting because the manager decided she couldn't work around my church schedule. Since then, I have applied at two banks, Valmiera Glass, Footwear Factory, another Fred's, Dollar General, and other places, but nothing's come of any of them yet. The Footwear Factory, which would be a new business in my area, is hopefully within the next month or so. As it seems, I was one of the first handfuls that filled out an application. During a tent revival meeting I went to a couple of weeks back, the pastor called me down to the front and told me that Jesus was getting ready to make a move in my finances, whether that be blessing me with money, but he seemed sure the Lord was fixing to give me a job.

Second, I need a healing in my lower back. Since last October, I have had (sometimes) unbearable pain shoot down my right leg. After several ER visits, we finally got an MRI done, and it was determined I have pinched nerve that is causing the pain. Go figure. I started seeing a chiropractor, who told me my pelvic, shoulders, and spine are uneven and therefore cause this pain. I saw her regularly for almost a month, but without a job and a easy money flow, I simply cannot afford the trips to see her any further. I honestly feel like the Lord wants to heal me, but that He wants me in the right spot, faith-wise, to do it. Every time I have discussed going to the chiropractor in the past few weeks, I instantly feel a relief and I continue praying, thanking Jesus for the healing I know He's going to grant.

Lastly, and most importantly to me I suppose, I have a rather difficult time with my personal self-esteem. Because I was chunky, non-athletic, semi-geeky, and occasionally socially awkward, I was never a "popular kid" in school, whether I was in church or not. This trend has continued post-high school, and as I have settled more into church itself. I have had quite a number close friends after entering church, but it just doesn't seem to work out. Most of them, especially the guys, only seemed to like me when I compromised my soft exterior to be more jockish. To almost all of them, I am, quite frankly, their default friend. Or that's how it seems. They're never really interested in hanging out or including me unless their other buddies aren't there, especially the guys. As for the girls, well, being in church, I tend to stay distant because I don't want anyone getting the wrong idea with me having too many close friends that are girls. All of this tends to way on my heavily, sometimes more so than others. I am at the point now where I have decided to keep everyone at arm's length. I don't really have desire to have anyone particularly close to me. I still love my "friends", I pray for them all the time, and I do wish things could be better. But it's hard when you don't feel like you fit in with any clique per se, and most people are just tolerating you. I find myself, especially at my Mother's church, gravitating to the older ladies that like to hear me sing, testify, and call me "their boy". They like me for me, and I honestly doubt that anyone else really does.

To make this post as short as possible, I just ask you all to please help me pray for these three things troubling me. I greatly appreciate all of you doing so!

In Jesus' Name,
Holy Roller

[Amanah]

I'm slightly autistic (Asperger's) which means I am also socially awkward.
Which also means I have more time then most people to read and study and pray.

It is apparent from your posts that you also have lots of time to read, study and pray. :highfive

praying you will find a job soon. And there are exercises you can do for your back to help with alignment. Ask a dr to give you exercises you can do at home.

[MawMaw]

I will lift your needs in prayer, brother!
Oh, and you are somebody special! Believe
in yourself! :nod

[Bro Flame]

I'm slightly autistic (Asperger's) which means I am also socially awkward.
Which also means I have more time then most people to read and study and pray.

It is apparent from your posts that you also have lots of time to read, study and pray. :highfive

praying you will find a job soon. And there are exercises you can do for your back to help with alignment. Ask a dr to give you exercises you can do at home.
I do have quite a lot of free time, and I do need to get more strict about my Bible-studying and praying than I have been lately. I guess we all get slacks sometimes, but I need to get back at it.

I appreciate your prayers for a job. Yes, I have heard of the at-home exercises to help ease my pain. My aunt's a nurse and she's showed me one or two she did when her back was in similar pain to mine.

[Bro Flame]

I will lift your needs in prayer, brother!
Oh, and you are somebody special! Believe
in yourself! :nod
Thanks! Sometimes, though, it's hard for me to see myself as anything out of the ordinary when I don't really think anyone else does. Perhaps, just perhaps, no one matters outside of Jesus, but I'd like to know someone liked having me around and like me for me. You know?

[Amanah]

Thanks! Sometimes, though, it's hard for me to see myself as anything out of the ordinary when I don't really think anyone else does. Perhaps, just perhaps, no one matters outside of Jesus, but I'd like to know someone liked having me around and like me for me. You know?

My sister hardly ever comes to church now. She was in church from her teens until her early 30s but never really made friends in the church. Now she has lots of friends, they are nice people but not church people. I try to make up the lack, but she is single and lonely and I can not spend as much time with her as she needs.

You are not the only one who feels this way, maybe you can see if there are others you can reach out to and help. In helping others, you can help yourself.

[Apostolic1ness]

I know I have a older thread going about another issue I needed you all to help me pray about, but I figured I would start a new one to address some different troubles.

I would greatly you all binding with me in prayer with the following:

First, I am in desperate need of a job. Since I have graduated high school back in May 2016, I have applied for many different jobs, but none of them have followed through. One of the first I applied for, a job at my then-local Fred's, I was actually hired, only to be fired before starting because the manager decided she couldn't work around my church schedule. Since then, I have applied at two banks, Valmiera Glass, Footwear Factory, another Fred's, Dollar General, and other places, but nothing's come of any of them yet. The Footwear Factory, which would be a new business in my area, is hopefully within the next month or so. As it seems, I was one of the first handfuls that filled out an application. During a tent revival meeting I went to a couple of weeks back, the pastor called me down to the front and told me that Jesus was getting ready to make a move in my finances, whether that be blessing me with money, but he seemed sure the Lord was fixing to give me a job.

Second, I need a healing in my lower back. Since last October, I have had (sometimes) unbearable pain shoot down my right leg. After several ER visits, we finally got an MRI done, and it was determined I have pinched nerve that is causing the pain. Go figure. I started seeing a chiropractor, who told me my pelvic, shoulders, and spine are uneven and therefore cause this pain. I saw her regularly for almost a month, but without a job and a easy money flow, I simply cannot afford the trips to see her any further. I honestly feel like the Lord wants to heal me, but that He wants me in the right spot, faith-wise, to do it. Every time I have discussed going to the chiropractor in the past few weeks, I instantly feel a relief and I continue praying, thanking Jesus for the healing I know He's going to grant.

Lastly, and most importantly to me I suppose, I have a rather difficult time with my personal self-esteem. Because I was chunky, non-athletic, semi-geeky, and occasionally socially awkward, I was never a "popular kid" in school, whether I was in church or not. This trend has continued post-high school, and as I have settled more into church itself. I have had quite a number close friends after entering church, but it just doesn't seem to work out. Most of them, especially the guys, only seemed to like me when I compromised my soft exterior to be more jockish. To almost all of them, I am, quite frankly, their default friend. Or that's how it seems. They're never really interested in hanging out or including me unless their other buddies aren't there, especially the guys. As for the girls, well, being in church, I tend to stay distant because I don't want anyone getting the wrong idea with me having too many close friends that are girls. All of this tends to way on my heavily, sometimes more so than others. I am at the point now where I have decided to keep everyone at arm's length. I don't really have desire to have anyone particularly close to me. I still love my "friends", I pray for them all the time, and I do wish things could be better. But it's hard when you don't feel like you fit in with any clique per se, and most people are just tolerating you. I find myself, especially at my Mother's church, gravitating to the older ladies that like to hear me sing, testify, and call me "their boy". They like me for me, and I honestly doubt that anyone else really does.

To make this post as short as possible, I just ask you all to please help me pray for these three things troubling me. I greatly appreciate all of you doing so!

In Jesus' Name,
Holy Roller

Hey Bro. I have said in the past that I can see you love holiness and truth and was glad when you chose to stay with your Dad. So dont take this wrong but im gona show you some tough love man to man and in no way trying to hurt you. First about the job, just keep looking and Im sure God will bless.

As far as your back pain. Ill tell you a story of what happened to my wife. She hurt her back a few years ago and was going to the doc about it MRI, chiropractor etc. One day at church an evangelist was preaching about child like faith and called some of the kids with the Holy Ghost up to the front and asked if anyone would like the kids to pray for them. Well my wife was the first to step out and when they prayed for her she was healed immediately. It was one of those right before your eyes kind of things it was awesome. So God can surely heal you also.

OK the tough love part. You describe your exterior as "soft", you gravitate towards the older women, etc. This is not OK. You are aware of how God feels about effeminate guys and one of the definitions is "soft" and its not talking about having a baby face. Mannerism makes a difference, this of course is not saying in order to be manly one must go be some sports star or a great hunter or something. But our mannerisms, the way we carry ourselves, walk, talk, think, act must be in contrast to effeminacy i.e. the way a girl or woman would. Even if its just personality that may identify closer to the way a woman acts, these things must be done away with. Like I said not trying to hurt in any means and If im completely misreading your post please forgive and scrap my reply.

[Evang.Benincasa]

Keeping you in prayer in Jesus name. Listen to your pastor, the elders, and most important of all our Lord and Father Jesus Christ.:thumbsup

[houston]

OK the tough love part. You describe your exterior as "soft", you gravitate towards the older women, etc. This is not OK. You are aware of how God feels about effeminate guys and one of the definitions is "soft" and its not talking about having a baby face. Mannerism makes a difference, this of course is not saying in order to be manly one must go be some sports star or a great hunter or something. But our mannerisms, the way we carry ourselves, walk, talk, think, act must be in contrast to effeminacy i.e. the way a girl or woman would. Even if its just personality that may identify closer to the way a woman acts, these things must be done away with. Like I said not trying to hurt in any means and If im completely misreading your post please forgive and scrap my reply

You’re a special kind of idiot, aren’t you?

[Apostolic1ness]

I know I have a older thread going about another issue I needed you all to help me pray about, but I figured I would start a new one to address some different troubles.

I would greatly you all binding with me in prayer with the following:

First, I am in desperate need of a job. Since I have graduated high school back in May 2016, I have applied for many different jobs, but none of them have followed through. One of the first I applied for, a job at my then-local Fred's, I was actually hired, only to be fired before starting because the manager decided she couldn't work around my church schedule. Since then, I have applied at two banks, Valmiera Glass, Footwear Factory, another Fred's, Dollar General, and other places, but nothing's come of any of them yet. The Footwear Factory, which would be a new business in my area, is hopefully within the next month or so. As it seems, I was one of the first handfuls that filled out an application. During a tent revival meeting I went to a couple of weeks back, the pastor called me down to the front and told me that Jesus was getting ready to make a move in my finances, whether that be blessing me with money, but he seemed sure the Lord was fixing to give me a job.

Second, I need a healing in my lower back. Since last October, I have had (sometimes) unbearable pain shoot down my right leg. After several ER visits, we finally got an MRI done, and it was determined I have pinched nerve that is causing the pain. Go figure. I started seeing a chiropractor, who told me my pelvic, shoulders, and spine are uneven and therefore cause this pain. I saw her regularly for almost a month, but without a job and a easy money flow, I simply cannot afford the trips to see her any further. I honestly feel like the Lord wants to heal me, but that He wants me in the right spot, faith-wise, to do it. Every time I have discussed going to the chiropractor in the past few weeks, I instantly feel a relief and I continue praying, thanking Jesus for the healing I know He's going to grant.

Lastly, and most importantly to me I suppose, I have a rather difficult time with my personal self-esteem. Because I was chunky, non-athletic, semi-geeky, and occasionally socially awkward, I was never a "popular kid" in school, whether I was in church or not. This trend has continued post-high school, and as I have settled more into church itself. I have had quite a number close friends after entering church, but it just doesn't seem to work out. Most of them, especially the guys, only seemed to like me when I compromised my soft exterior to be more jockish. To almost all of them, I am, quite frankly, their default friend. Or that's how it seems. They're never really interested in hanging out or including me unless their other buddies aren't there, especially the guys. As for the girls, well, being in church, I tend to stay distant because I don't want anyone getting the wrong idea with me having too many close friends that are girls. All of this tends to way on my heavily, sometimes more so than others. I am at the point now where I have decided to keep everyone at arm's length. I don't really have desire to have anyone particularly close to me. I still love my "friends", I pray for them all the time, and I do wish things could be better. But it's hard when you don't feel like you fit in with any clique per se, and most people are just tolerating you. I find myself, especially at my Mother's church, gravitating to the older ladies that like to hear me sing, testify, and call me "their boy". They like me for me, and I honestly doubt that anyone else really does.

To make this post as short as possible, I just ask you all to please help me pray for these three things troubling me. I greatly appreciate all of you doing so!

In Jesus' Name,
Holy Roller

You’re a special kind of idiot, aren’t you?
Young man dont be foolish. name calling is immature.

[houston]

Young man dont be foolish. name calling is immature.

You’re accusing him of being a homosexual. He’s a geek. Not a jock. You don’t know why he’s gravitating toward the older women.

Malakos is the passive partner in a gay whatever. It’s not a geek. Good grief.

[Apostolic1ness]

You’re accusing him of being a homosexual. He’s a geek. Not a jock. You don’t know why he’s gravitating toward the older women.

Malakos is the passive partner in a gay whatever. It’s not a geek. Good grief.

No accusations just comments. that is for him to read and discard if needed, not for you. mature a little and stop the name calling we dont know each other.

[houston]

Then you should have sent him a pm.

[Apostolic1ness]

Then you should have sent him a pm.
thats your justification for calling someone you dont know an idiot? do you understand what that does to your credibility.

[houston]

thats your justification for calling someone you dont know an idiot? do you understand what that does to your credibility.

Ask around. I don’t care about credibility.

[Bro Flame]

I getting the feeling that I shouldn't have started this conversation.

[houston]

I getting the feeling that I shouldn't have started this conversation.

You’re fine.

[Esaias]

I know I have a older thread going about another issue I needed you all to help me pray about, but I figured I would start a new one to address some different troubles.

I would greatly you all binding with me in prayer with the following:

First, I am in desperate need of a job. Since I have graduated high school back in May 2016, I have applied for many different jobs, but none of them have followed through. One of the first I applied for, a job at my then-local Fred's, I was actually hired, only to be fired before starting because the manager decided she couldn't work around my church schedule. Since then, I have applied at two banks, Valmiera Glass, Footwear Factory, another Fred's, Dollar General, and other places, but nothing's come of any of them yet. The Footwear Factory, which would be a new business in my area, is hopefully within the next month or so. As it seems, I was one of the first handfuls that filled out an application. During a tent revival meeting I went to a couple of weeks back, the pastor called me down to the front and told me that Jesus was getting ready to make a move in my finances, whether that be blessing me with money, but he seemed sure the Lord was fixing to give me a job.

Second, I need a healing in my lower back. Since last October, I have had (sometimes) unbearable pain shoot down my right leg. After several ER visits, we finally got an MRI done, and it was determined I have pinched nerve that is causing the pain. Go figure. I started seeing a chiropractor, who told me my pelvic, shoulders, and spine are uneven and therefore cause this pain. I saw her regularly for almost a month, but without a job and a easy money flow, I simply cannot afford the trips to see her any further. I honestly feel like the Lord wants to heal me, but that He wants me in the right spot, faith-wise, to do it. Every time I have discussed going to the chiropractor in the past few weeks, I instantly feel a relief and I continue praying, thanking Jesus for the healing I know He's going to grant.

Lastly, and most importantly to me I suppose, I have a rather difficult time with my personal self-esteem. Because I was chunky, non-athletic, semi-geeky, and occasionally socially awkward, I was never a "popular kid" in school, whether I was in church or not. This trend has continued post-high school, and as I have settled more into church itself. I have had quite a number close friends after entering church, but it just doesn't seem to work out. Most of them, especially the guys, only seemed to like me when I compromised my soft exterior to be more jockish. To almost all of them, I am, quite frankly, their default friend. Or that's how it seems. They're never really interested in hanging out or including me unless their other buddies aren't there, especially the guys. As for the girls, well, being in church, I tend to stay distant because I don't want anyone getting the wrong idea with me having too many close friends that are girls. All of this tends to way on my heavily, sometimes more so than others. I am at the point now where I have decided to keep everyone at arm's length. I don't really have desire to have anyone particularly close to me. I still love my "friends", I pray for them all the time, and I do wish things could be better. But it's hard when you don't feel like you fit in with any clique per se, and most people are just tolerating you. I find myself, especially at my Mother's church, gravitating to the older ladies that like to hear me sing, testify, and call me "their boy". They like me for me, and I honestly doubt that anyone else really does.

To make this post as short as possible, I just ask you all to please help me pray for these three things troubling me. I greatly appreciate all of you doing so!

In Jesus' Name,
Holy Roller

Adding you to my prayer list.

You say you graduated high school in 2016? That would put you at about 20 years old or so, right? Let me tell you something (you won't believe it, until you hit 30 or so, then you'll say "that kook Esaias was right after all!" lol).

MUCH of the "awkwardness" and "low self esteem" you feel, is due entirely to your age. It's a normal thing. And I GUARANTEE you, most of the "cool people" who seem to "have it together", that are around your age, are faking it. Plain and simple. They feel just as insecure as you do. They've just learned to put on a front like they are sure of themselves more than you feel you are.

And I wouldn't be surprised if their opinion of you was somewhat different than your opinion of what you think they think of you. (Clear as mud? lol)

Also, I would encourage you to "gravitate" towards the elders ("olders") in your church. You will wind up being more mature, cause that "elder-ness" will rub off on you. Things like "wisdom", something old people seem to stock up on.

As for your physical attributes, I will say to you what I say to everyone: lift weights, take boxing, or just do physically hard stuff as much as possible. You don't have to be a "jock" to be physically fit, athletic, or have a commanding physical presence. (Most of it's mental, anyway.) Accomplishing hard, difficult, challenging things gives one confidence. And people recognise confidence. Especially the girls. :)

[Esaias]

As for jobs, use www.indeed.com and put in your location and you can find tons of jobs.

Best way to find a job, though, is to "know somebody". That means you gotta ask around. Ask the men at your church "Hey, you know where I can get a job?" Somebody may know somebody who knows somebody, etc.

Also, I don't know if you have access to a lawn mower, but if you do, you can always make some cash going about to the neighbours, and knocking on their door, and asking them if they need their yard mowed. I did this for awhile when I was younger. I did it in Texas with a HEAVILY competitive labour market (meaning LOTS of "lawn crews" running around) and I still made some decent cash, enough to keep me going until I found more regular work.

You can also look up the local Unions, like the local Equipment Operator's Union, or Pipefitter's Union, etc. you can join and sign up for an apprenticeship, and they will help you find work and train you for a career that will earn around 15-20 bucks an hour starting out.

If you're on the geeky side, and like computers, go to GitHub. They offer free coding training, go at your own pace, and when you are done you will be able to market yourself as a software engineer or network engineer, programmer, etc. You will have a portfolio of accomplished projects (apps you will develop for charities to help them do their charity work) on your resume and will be able to land a good job programming. Or you can freelance and work for yourself.

Instead of trying to apply at retail stores, find every machine shop or welding shop in town and hit them up. The reason I say that is because retail is overly seasonal, low hours, low pay. Starting out as a machinist's helper or welder's helper will pay better, plus you will be on your way to a marketable skill that is always in demand somewhere.

On every application, call them back every couple of days and ask them "when do I start?" Bug them until they hire you just to get you to quit calling them. I'm serious as a heart attack, this is how the job market really works.

If you have a driver's license with no DUI, go here: https://www.usicllc.com/careers find your location and apply. The office may be a way's away, because each office covers a large area. But they are ALWAYS hiring, even if they act like they don't want to hire anyone. Pester, pester, pester. If there is no USIC office in your state, then just google "underground utility locator" and your state and or city name. You can also check out http://www.thecablevine.com/forum/forum.php for news and updates on job openings by other utility locating companies.

I'll be praying for you. Listen to brother Benincasa, too. :)

[Bro Flame]

As for jobs, use www.indeed.com and put in your location and you can find tons of jobs.

Best way to find a job, though, is to "know somebody". That means you gotta ask around. Ask the men at your church "Hey, you know where I can get a job?" Somebody may know somebody who knows somebody, etc.

Also, I don't know if you have access to a lawn mower, but if you do, you can always make some cash going about to the neighbours, and knocking on their door, and asking them if they need their yard mowed. I did this for awhile when I was younger. I did it in Texas with a HEAVILY competitive labour market (meaning LOTS of "lawn crews" running around) and I still made some decent cash, enough to keep me going until I found more regular work.

You can also look up the local Unions, like the local Equipment Operator's Union, or Pipefitter's Union, etc. you can join and sign up for an apprenticeship, and they will help you find work and train you for a career that will earn around 15-20 bucks an hour starting out.

If you're on the geeky side, and like computers, go to GitHub. They offer free coding training, go at your own pace, and when you are done you will be able to market yourself as a software engineer or network engineer, programmer, etc. You will have a portfolio of accomplished projects (apps you will develop for charities to help them do their charity work) on your resume and will be able to land a good job programming. Or you can freelance and work for yourself.

Instead of trying to apply at retail stores, find every machine shop or welding shop in town and hit them up. The reason I say that is because retail is overly seasonal, low hours, low pay. Starting out as a machinist's helper or welder's helper will pay better, plus you will be on your way to a marketable skill that is always in demand somewhere.

On every application, call them back every couple of days and ask them "when do I start?" Bug them until they hire you just to get you to quit calling them. I'm serious as a heart attack, this is how the job market really works.

If you have a driver's license with no DUI, go here: https://www.usicllc.com/careers find your location and apply. The office may be a way's away, because each office covers a large area. But they are ALWAYS hiring, even if they act like they don't want to hire anyone. Pester, pester, pester. If there is no USIC office in your state, then just google "underground utility locator" and your state and or city name. You can also check out http://www.thecablevine.com/forum/forum.php for news and updates on job openings by other utility locating companies.

I'll be praying for you. Listen to brother Benincasa, too. :)
Thank you for your advice. It's appreciated. :)

[Bro Flame]

I just wanted to share with you all my experience, especially those that have helped me pray about my healing in my lower back.

Last Tuesday night (June 19, 2018), I attended a camp meeting. The lady that ministered that evening gave an altar call at the conclusion. After a few went to her for special prayer, she said that she felt some people in the sanctuary needed a healing, and if they waited much longer, she feared their time for that evening would pass.

And off I went down the middle aisle to her.

She laid her hands on my shoulders, and two other ministers came up behind me and laid their hands on my back.

Since last Tuesday, I haven't to take any medicine for pain. I can get up and down out of my seat with ease, no pain in walking at all. My shoulders and pelvis are evening out before my eyes!

I'm claiming this healing! Glory to the Lord! Help me rejoice and pray this process of healing continues!

[Amanah]

thank God for healing:highfive

[Bro Flame]

thank God for healing:highfive
Yes ma'am! I thank you and everyone else for their prayers. I will ask that you and the rest keep praying that my healing continues, and that it sticks. In Jesus' Name!

[Evang.Benincasa]

I just wanted to share with you all my experience, especially those that have helped me pray about my healing in my lower back.

Last Tuesday night (June 19, 2018), I attended a camp meeting. The lady that ministered that evening gave an altar call at the conclusion. After a few went to her for special prayer, she said that she felt some people in the sanctuary needed a healing, and if they waited much longer, she feared their time for that evening would pass.

And off I went down the middle aisle to her.

She laid her hands on my shoulders, and two other ministers came up behind me and laid their hands on my back.

Since last Tuesday, I haven't to take any medicine for pain. I can get up and down out of my seat with ease, no pain in walking at all. My shoulders and pelvis are evening out before my eyes!

I'm claiming this healing! Glory to the Lord! Help me rejoice and pray this process of healing continues!

Praise the Lord for your healing.