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This is a sad month for me. 42 years ago, I lost my Mama. 24 years ago, I lost a son. April will be 26 years since I lost a daughter. They say time heals all wounds, sometimes they re-open when you least expect it.
Tell your loved ones you love them today, even if they're gone.
I loved you Mama, John Michael, and Amelia Nicole. Thankful that I know y'all are free of pain, and are with our Heavenly Father. Will see y'all again someday.

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You've certainly endured some heartache, sis. I'm sorry for your loss and pray those wounds heal over for you.

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I'm so sorry Cindy for your loss. I am unable to appreciate what you have and are going through for I've never had to walk the same road as you. The loss of my mom and dad was a great loss. But it's normal for kids to bury their parents. But to have to bury two children is beyond comprehension. My thoughts and prayers are with you today. Thank God He has kept you around to be a blessings to others.

Happy Valentine's Day to a special person!

Been Thinkin

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Cindy I want to share with you a special poem, a favorite of mine. Your loved ones are in full bloom today in God's garden of love.

Near a shady wall a rose once grew, Budded and blossomed in God's free light, Watered and fed by morning dew, Shedding it's sweetness day and night.
As it grew and blossomed fair and tall Slowly rising to loftier height, It came to a crevice in the wall Through which there shone a beam of light.
Onward it crept with added strength With never a thought of fear or pride, It followed the light through the crevice's length And unfolded itself on the other side.
The light, the dew, the broadening view Were found the same as they were before. And it lost itself in beauties new, Breathing its fragrance more and more.
Shall claim of death cause us to grieve And make our courage faint and fall? Nay! Let us faith and hope receive; The rose still grows beyond the wall.
Scattering fragrance far and wide, Just as she did in days of yore; Just as she did on the other side, Just as she will for evermore.

Been Thinkin

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That would be very hard for me too. Can't imagine what you must be feeling. Wish I could give you a hug Cindy.

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Some years are worse than others. Sometimes I am able to not keep myself distracted from grief. But I always have that blessed hope that I will see them again, in a much better place!!

Thank you, JimH, BT, and Elizabeth.

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Cindy, It broke my heart to read your post. Most of us will have to deal with losing our parents but no parent should have to deal with losing one child must less two.

I can't even imagine what it must be like. Losing my dad when I was 13 almost 40 years ago still affects me today and losing my sweet mom a year and half ago still hurts.

A couple of days ago I was thinking about my dad while driving and got all choked up and tears in my eyes. Then I thought to myself that this was a wonderful tribute to a man who only had 13 years to make an impression on his son and it has been a lasting one.

I will be praying that the Holy Spirit will indeed be a comforter to you as promised.

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I know what you mean, CC1. My Mom instilled a lot of values in me in 16 years. She was a woman of great faith, that is how many remember her. She and my grandmother are why I have this great Heritage. They just lived the life, and were great examples.

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Here's a great big hug Cindy! :hug4

So sorry you're hurting...Sending lots of love your way! :heart :heart :heart

And a teddy bear to hug too! http://friendsplaceforum.com/images/smilies/bear1.gif

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I want to give you a hug (:hug4) and use The Mrs' teddy bear too!!! http://friendsplaceforum.com/images/smilies/bear1.gif

Love you!!!! :heart

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I'm sorry, Cindy. :hug3

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Bless you Cindy. I will pray for you too.

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Cindy,

You sure have been through a lot. Praying for you...

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CC1, my husband called me at work the other day....something he never does. He was all choked up. A woman on his team at work had a brain aneurysm and, since he is the boss, he knew about it but could not talk about it at the time to anyone until he had the go-ahead from her family. His Dad died of a brain aneurysm when he was 16 and he found him in the driveway. Sometimes, it all comes back.

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Yes, it does come back sometimes when you least expect it. I have an awesome husband, wonderful children and grandchildren. But sometimes I sure miss my Mama and my Dad.

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Your post really touched my heart, Sis Cindy. And, though I won't presume to say I know how you feel, I can certainly relate. February is not a very good month for me, either. It was three years ago this month that I lost my wife. I don't know if time heals wounds or not. But I do believe its the love you have for, and have shared with, your loved ones that makes the wounds easier to bear. At times, I miss my wife as much as I did the day she left, but, knowing we had 13 of the happiest years of my life together makes it easier to bear.

I grieve with you, and I pray God comforts you in the knowledge that, though we can't understand it, He does all things well. God bless you, sister.

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Yes, I understand OneAccord. I hope you have peace and solace, too.
Thanks for all the words of comfort and prayers, everyone. It really does help.

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Praying for you too, OA.

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Thank you, ILG.

Pro 10:22 The blessing of the LORD, it maketh rich, and he addeth no sorrow with it.

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Cindy, I sooooooo wish that there were words that could take this hurt away completely. There really isn't anything any of us can say tho. Just know that we all love you and are going to remember you in prayer this month in particular. You and OneAccord. And CC1.

If you were within driving distance to me, I would get in the car right now, drive to your house, ring your doorbell and give you the biggest hug ever. Then I would sit beside you on your couch and listen to you tell me everything that made your loved ones so special.

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For none of us are guaranteed another day. The comforting thought is that heaven awaits for us where we shall meet again in the home where love will be made perfect.

May the peace and comfort that only our Lord can provide, cuddle you the blessed hope that just a little further on, you will be with them again. Glad day of reunion, it is sure to be.

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Thanks, Margie. And people wonder why AFF is so special to us. Even though most of us have never met, the words we exchange sure do matter. :friend

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Peace be to you, Cindy!! Sometimes our memories and our hopes are the only thing that can keep us, may the Lord keep your memories fresh and precious.

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:friend

February has some difficult memories for me too, though not nearly as difficult as your losses. You're in my prayers.

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Not intending to sound flip,
but,
if you know where they are, they are not lost.

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I have always been particularly sensitive to people who would get on AFF / NFCF and try to minimize it by saying it was only entertainment, etc.

It was AFF / NFCF that helped me retain my sanity during my sons two tours of duty as a United State Marine in the Al Anbar province of Iraq.

The friends I made on here who held my son and myself and my wife up in prayer and gave us encouragement was priceless beyond words.

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I know what you mean, Sam. It's not flip at all. Therein lies my hope of seeing them again.

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Cindy, thanks for sharing with all of us your losses in life and your emotions this month. In doing so others have shared as well and I'm sitting here with tears in my eyes.

I hope we don't all have to wait till we get to heaven to meet each other. Maybe someday some one can design a way for us all to share with each other who we really are where none of the folks on the "closed threads" can see!

I personally think AFF is a "top notch" group and I'm glad to be a part of it.

Been Thinkin

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:thumbsup Absolutely, CC1. I could not have made it thru Walt's aneurysm without all of you either. I don't care what anyone says - this place is a "God thing"!

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I hope that you take comfort from this thread as well, Mary. Thank you, and you are in mine as well. God bless you and give you peace as only He can. But know you are loved by us on AFF.

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When all the stages of grief have passed, we still have some left over pain, BT. Some of us have scars than no one else ever sees, but God does. But sometimes the comfort of friends and family are needed, too. Today was one of those days for me. So knowing how much love is shared here on AFF, I knew just where to turn to. Thank you all for your words of comfort and love. It really helped me get through the day.

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Just saw this, Cindy. I'm so sorry for the pain that this month must bring every year. Praying for you.........

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Amen, Cindy! AMEN!

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I think that is so great......
that people here really care about one another
and pray for one another.

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Sister I'm sorry about your pain.I do care about your situation.

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love you Cindy, you are a very sweet and special person. you are in my prayers.