A Little Update
 

I want to say that I appreciate you all for keeping me in your prayers, and I hope you continue doing so.

I'm still trying to work some things out in my life, and adjusting to changes that have had to be made for some time now. This isn't easy on my poor mind, and the thing has been working overtime to give me more grief while trying to fight off the depressive state it wants to leave me in.

I've been having really vivid dreams and they are quite disturbing. I dream of people coming after me to kill me, and I've lately been dreaming of people I know dying horrible deaths. Last night, I dreamed that I had a horrible dream, told a friend about it, then dreamed it again, only to wake this morning to discover that the entire thing was a dream! I think I'm going crazy too!

I want to post here once again, but not in the manner that I always have. I want to change some things about myself, and my posting topics have to change also. I want to post more uplifting thoughts than defensive ones, and do more to help my brothers and sisters than tearing them down.

And for those of you I've offended and hurt in any way, please accept my apologies for that. Being offensive and hurtful is not the kind of person I am nor that I want to be.

You've all been nothing but wonderful friends to me, and for that, I'm eternally grateful. I'm thrilled that I'll be meeting some of you next month, and I'm looking forward to that.

I'm ending this post with a verse that struck my heart tonight.

Ps 40:3
And he hath put a new song in my mouth, even praise unto our God: many shall see it, and fear, and shall trust in the LORD.

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God bles you HO. I am still praying for you as I hope you are doing for me.

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We will continue to pray

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You bet. I prayed for several people on this forum today. I don't pray like I should every day, but when I do, I include my friends in those prayers.

Thanks.

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Thanks, Jax. It means a lot to me. I've come a long way, but I still have a long way to go.

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Praying for you Sis. Remember: "Greater is He..."

You know all that stuff.

Romans 4:17-18 helps me when things get muddled. Abraham, "against hope, believed in hope..." The basis for this seemingly irrational behavior was Abraham's trust in "God who gives life to the dead and calls things that are not as though they were."

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You are a wonderful person... and in my prayers. Fell free anytime to PM me...love you.

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Thanks, my friend.

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You have my number. If you ever need to just call and talk, I'm here.

In the meantime, I'll do what I should have done more faithfully all along - I'll remember you in prayer regularly.

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Thanks, my friend.