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Hello,
I'm ashamed to say that I'm currently not living in accordance with Jesus's teachings. I'm in bondage again to the old habits I did before being set free by God. I put the chains back on my hands and feet. I kissed the gates of heaven and walked away. The weight of my sins are heavy on my shoulders. Fear and sorrow fill my heart.
My spirit longs for Christ, but I deny it. The things of this world have seduced me. I need prayers for Grace. Please and thank you.

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Go and sin no more. Your sins are forgiven. Take up thy bed, and walk.

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Praying for you Apostlee.
Jesus is waiting for you.
He will not turn you away. :)

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apostolee, please read what I say very carefully. If you notice, I did not quote your post. Why? Because much likened sins that have been repented of and confessed, in the eyes of Jesus, they are remembered no more. You have a new beginning of restoration and renewal ahead of you. I speak to the troubles of your mind in the name of Jesus, and I say to you that in you, a soul that is repentant and believing, is the mind of Christ. Ask Him to refill you with His Spirit, and seek hard after Him. He is near to all who call upon Him. And you, apostolee, you have not gone too far. His blood cleanses from all sin, restores from all past, and renews through His Spirit.

Now, go, walk in Him, seek Him, follow Him, and He is with you. Lo, He is with you.

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Thanks. Its always good to hear encouragement, instead of condemnation.

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God is faithful, He will not turn you away.

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I am a upc pastors son and i walked away from the church for 13 years, that was 20 years ago ,nothing is impossible.Find an apostolic church and just start over.

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ive done the same thing, felt the same way. I wanted to go back to God but felt powerless todo it. The same things in the world that had me in bondage before grasped me again.

even the preacher was praying for me and i told him im not your brother im your burden.

However while i was camping out with the pigs in the stall, God kept laying on my heart the parable of the lost son/prodigal son.

I however felt i cant go back to church ill get condemed, People wont look at me the same anymore. the relationshops we had would be gone. (btw that is just a lie from the pits of hell)

many times over this story would enter my head. and this went on for weeks.
It was so fitting on how detailed God can be, that when i went back to church, I bet you can guess what the preacher preached on that day. Yes sir the same thing he had placed on my mind.

Though you may not experience what i experience that doesnt mean he loves you less.. So stop degrading yourself, God thought you worthy to send his only begotten Son to die for you, while you was still a sinner.

and Just like the Father waited for his son to return home in the parable, he waits for you. He waites to but a robe around you, new shoes on your feet and a ring on your finger. The heavenly Host await for the sounds of repentance from your lips to have a revival.

You sir are redeemable

edit
i wanted to add since i went back to church, no condemnation, relationships have prospered and grown. He made us feel so loved that i consider these my family

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Many try to get their life in order to come back to Him. Mostly because many Christians have failed to show Christs love and compassion to those that have falling and need a hand up. BUT he wants us to come as we are. Come to Him in your filth and stench and let Him clean you and make you WHOLE as well as HOLY. He doesn't look at the outside that you have messed up, He looks at the heart and what HE can do with it. Once He has the heart He can clean you up on the outside. Seek out your salvation with fear and trembling. Allow Jesus to become the love of your life and follow HIM and HIM alone.

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