I really need to confess something
 

It is very difficult for me to get hard feelings and even dwell on things for long...However I am considering (no you do not need to write me asking me to leave or stay) but I was am kinda hurt because I felt and feel like Old Paths 11 called me a liar in so many words. I did run a copy of the posts and have let others read his words and up to this point everyone that I have let read what was written said almost the same words to me. (it seemed the same to them that I was not telling the truth)

I just want everyone to know no matter what I decide I have NEVER told a story about Brazil or anything else for that matter that was a lie...If I misunderstood or misquoted I may have made an honest mistake. Such as my sweet friend Renda showed me a mistake that I corrected. The way my house is so full of people running in and out (just ask Sherri) it is easy to type something and make a mistake or read something so fast and get the wrong meaning...HOWEVER for me to tell a happening and it not be true is not my personality.

That is why I pasted some things and got an infractions for cutting and pasting from my book because I wanted OP 11 to point out a lie...

Anyway, if anyone has hard feelings toward me I ask your forgiveness...It has always been my desire to help people get a first hand look into the life and doings of a missionary. In fact that is why our home is always open and many over the years have come to get the real feeling of missionary life.

We may not be the typiclal missionary family since my husband is not American and many Americans tend to live the American way at their homes. Nothing wrong with that. We tend to live with and among the people and I know some of that is due to the fact my family is Brazilian.

However being in our home gives a person a first hand glimpse of what being a missionary is all about.

I am a missionary by calling and by choice...I love being a missionary...

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The real crime here is the amount of time you've spent thinking about what he's said and the seconds he took to think it up and fire it off as a post. Such is the effort required to destroy (very little) versus to create (quite a bit).

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I agree with RW. Dwelling too much on any, one thing can create undo stress. When things get real heated on AFF, I just take a break and clear my head. It's amazing how you see things when you step back and view things from a distance.

What's really funny about the Internet and even Forums like this, it's very easy for someone to create an illusion that we, indeed, fall for. Take a breath, Sis, and thank God for this wonderful day that He has made!!

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Sis. Alvear, I appreciate yours and Bro. Alvear's sacrifices and ministry and I've witnessed your excellent spirit up close. I know that you do not live lavishly nor spend money foolishly. I appreciate your newsletters and correspondence. To God be all the glory for the work wrought in Brazil.

Could the enemy have wrecked your stove, and why would he even do something like that? There is currently another thread discussing the amount of missionary funds are kept back due to administration and overhead. Each penny...yes, penny...sent to a missionary is vitally important to the work. Having to divert funds to buy a stove takes away from building churches and obtaining materials for the work of the Kingdom.

The enemy knows that he cannot drive you from Brazil (God being your Buckler and Shield), so he must agitate, rob, and disrupt in other ways. So, yes, it's entirely possible that wrecking your stove is the work of the devil.

Matthew 13:24-28
24 Another parable put he forth unto them, saying, The kingdom of heaven is likened unto a man which sowed good seed in his field:
25 But while men slept, his enemy came and sowed tares among the wheat , and went his way.
26 But when the blade was sprung up, and brought forth fruit, then appeared the tares also.
27 So the servants of the householder came and said unto him, Sir, didst not thou sow good seed in thy field? from whence then hath it tares?
28 He said unto them, An enemy hath done this.

John 10:10 The thief cometh not, but for to steal, and to kill, and to destroy: I am come that they might have life, and that they might have it more abundantly.

Matthew 28:20 Teaching them to observe all things whatsoever I have commanded you: and, lo, I am with you alway, even unto the end of the world. Amen.

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Randy, I have always tried to be so transparent and it bothers me that someone would openly in so many words call me a liar... Because of being a missionary so many have messed up or do not have what they say they have I have always tried to be faithful and true...however I do not mean to leave the impression of a pity party but just want people to know I am 100 % human however I do my best to be a christian.

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Yes, we are in an awesome campmeeting among so many friends...some I went to school with...and even some older sisters that taught me in school...How blessed I am.

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Sad to say, Sis Alvear, but the more transparent you are, it seems the more people will hold you underneath their microscope/radar, etc. Your posts are a blessing to more people than you realize; what one person tries to emphasize contrary to your posts (name-calling, etc) is nothing short of a waste of everyone's time here on AFF. Let God continue to use you and bless your ministry; I'm sure He'll be dealing with the dissenters in the process, whether we ever know about it or not.

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Naw, I do not for one second think your trying to throw a pity party. :) Your just a person to whom words mean things and probably have a hard time considering the source of some of those words from time to time and thus having a hard time filtering them when they should be.

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Sister Alvear, please consider how much weight someone like OPII carries on this forum. His voice in the stove issue was rather small, and he was far outnumbered by those supporting you!

All of us who have been here a while have been attacked and had things said about us we deem wrong and unfair. Please consider the positive impact you have to many of us here when weighing your future involvement.

Another thing every AFF member should know is that Admin actions are rarely publicized. Lack of knowledge on Admin action should not be equated with inaction. We make every effort to be fair, while at the same time resisting a heavy handed approach that would stifle minority voices.

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