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I've always had issues with my dad.

My dad is a preacher and when I try and talk to him about things he's pretty dismissive.

I mean there are things that God has given me that just set me on fire inside...Words and revelations and I try to talk to my dad about and he just abruptly changes the subject to something totally unrelated. Like he doesn't care who I am...Or what I'm saying.

It's frustrating because these are things you'd THINK would be of importance to him.

I'm not trying to shove things in his face...I'm trying to open up to him because we are similar in a lot of ways and I'm looking for feedback...Not backslap...Just discussion.

That's why I post alot on here...I enjoy and NEED the discussion and feedback even when we don't agree...Especially when we don't agree.

I grew up with no affirmation even though I had a father that seemed to be there and the preachers in my life pretty much took me for granted because they watched me grow up.

It was frustrating watching them cozy up to my dad with the camraderie...With my dad wearing a mask...Them not really knowing who he was like I did...All I wanted was some discipleship...because I certainly wasn't getting it at home.

I'm following after God, my wife and I both. We have stepped out on some extreme faith and truly we have discovered that when you do this...When you go against tradition and actually obey God it causes a rift to form between you and other friends and family.

Your life begins to convict them. You discover that you aren't called to make people at ease and comfortable.

It's amazing how defensive people get when you aren't even accusing them of anything...You're just obeying Him.

You begin to run into alot of "Older Brother" personalities that want to question your ability, calling, qualification and intentions when you show up and want to kill giants.

I'm blessed to have a pastor and evangelist at a church we are attending that is a hour and a half away that doesn't see me like others I grew up with have seen me.

I'm not claiming prophetic office but I do understand that saying,"A prophet hath no honor in his own country."

Love all you folks...just needed to talk and vent.

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My father was an atheist and behaved pretty much the same way.

Stick with your pastor and move forward.

Only Jesus knows what the future holds. :thumbsup

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I'm just learning to keep my mouth shut around certain people.

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That my brother is a marvelous gift which few people master.

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Lol!

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don't you know that this is why God can use you, it's because you are broken. We have this treasure in earthen vessels. But even though God chooses the weak and the despised things, The alabaster box still needs to be broken so that the anointing can flow. That is why we rejoice in our weakness, for then He can show himself strong. He doesn't have to break your flesh for the anointing to flow, you are already broken

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Who wants to be broken?

I would rather be whole!

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Father-Son dynamics can be very strange and I have no words of wisdom for you there except to say that if you dad can't be there for you on these spiritual matters try to accept that and work on the ways / situations in which you can interact well and work on building that. Is it possible that it just may take some time for your dad to see that this change and commitment to God is real and going to last? He may be protecting himself from being hurt by having this wall up because he fears your re-conversion won't last. Of course I could be way off the mark here. In any case don't let any of these things discourage you. While it is great to have affirmation from our loved ones ultimately, as an adult, our salvation and relationship with God is on us and us alone.

Also as far as your zeal and excitement about what God is doing in you and for you - that is a great thing but also be patient and let the process work out through time as you will get even more grounded through study and prayer.

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:highfive :thumbsup Excellent!

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I appreciate the advice.

Even before backsliding he was this way.

I started preaching when I was 16.

I wasn't always a heathen.lol

What I'm seeing is family is freaking out. The way I live now challenges their life of fear and unbelief.

It's bad when your Pentecostal family gives you weird looks when you talk about faith.