[Cindy]

Originally Posted by Falla39

Matt,
It could be partially what Cindy has stated, but could be a combination of reasons. But I have a feeling, although you have lived with an aunt and uncle since you were 16 yrs old, your Mom was alive. No doubt the circimstances just this month have contributed to your feeling of being alone.
In 1970 we lost a little 5 1/2 yr old daughter in an accident. While God gave tremendeous peace and comfort during the funeral, etc. Felt as if I was surrounded by a sheet of protection, shielding me from the blast of what had happened. Six weeks later, I received a letter from a dear elderly friend who had just learned of our tragedy. She wrote a short note, saying she had not known at the time. She enclosed a beautiful poem entitled "KIM", she had written. That poem triggered something in me. I fell apart, realization awaking in me that my child would never come home again in this life. Delayed grief perhaps.
Matt, just a very short time ago you posted the following request in the "Prayer Room".

Prayer Needed For Bereavement. 5-7-2012

My mom died today, at about 4:00 pm. Please keep me and my family, especially my sister Maegan, and my dad Marcus, in prayer.
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Though it seemed you may have been okay, it is possible that REALITY has set in! Mom is not coming home again. It has been almost 13 yrs since my own dear sweet Mother left us, a week or so after Mother's Day. Tomorrow is Mother's Day again and I sit here weeping as I feel I can identify with your loneliness. After all these years, I still miss my "Momma".
May our Great LORD GOD bring you the PEACE and COMFORT this first Mother's Day without your Mom!

HUGS!

Falla39

I believe you're right, Falla. I lost my Mom when I was 16, and although I was not alone, I was very lonesome for her. I hated everybody for a while, and I was angry at her for leaving me. And there are times I still want and need my Mama.
Will be praying for you, Matt.