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I am so excited!! I got the job I applied for!!!!

If you haven't been following, here is what has been happening. I quit my job in late July in order to go to nursing school. I have spent years doing prerequisite classes for nursing school. Last summer I took a CPR class and did all the paperwork etc. It cost me a lot of time and money. I have felt for a long time that I needed to step out and do something different than the job I had. Finally, everything was in place.

I did have some concerns about school and working as a nurse. One of those concerns is that I am pretty opposed to the flu shot, at least for myself. I saw my husband have a severe reaction to the flu shot right before he went through radiation treatments for cancer. And since I have an auto-immune disorder (Raynauds) I try to avoid shots as much as possible. I am not toally anti-vaccine, but I try to be very careful. I got Tdap, which was something I had to do to sign up for school. They wanted me to get new MMR vaccines because I just had the old record my Mom had but in order to avoid those, I got titers done to prove immunity. Then, I was able to sign off on the Hep B and the flu shot....they were not required.

I had some misgivings about the Tdap but I don't have as many concerns about that one as I do the flu shot. For one thing, the Tdap is every ten years. The flu shot is every year.

I was very stressed out in school. The strain on my eyes from studying was very hard and I started having flashing lights behind my eyes. One night it was scary bad. The next morning I called the opthamologist and made an appt. That afternoon, I was told the flu shot was mandatory now. I was very upset about this. On tope of the great stress I was dealing with, now this. I wrote to my instructor and said this was not mandatory when I signed up. She said I either had to get the shot or leave school. That night, a different instructor wrote on my report that I had taken more breaks than I was supposed to last time which was completely untrue. When I got home that night, another instructor sent me two obnoxious emails yelling at me for being "late" on an assignment (this instructor has been the worst instructor I have ever had). I wrote to her and told her I had sent it to her a week and a half early and that she should check her records. I was really struggling with the stress of all of this. Did I work this hard to get into school only do be buffetted at every turn? I don't have to capacity to deal with stress like I once did, after all I have been through.

At the very same time, an unbelievable thing happened. A job came open almost exactly like the one I left. Same distance from my house, same amount of hours. Amazing.

I applied. I was moved into the job immediately in my mind. When I interviewed (for an hour and a half), I felt like I was at a picnic, relaxing talking to my old friend. That was unusual too.

This whole journey has had some things involved in it I can't explain. I have exercised faith muscles I haven't exercised in a while. I took some risks I really felt like I needed to take.

And here I am, a few months later, after a wild ride.....employed with a soft landing....

There were things that really bothered me where I was working before, like the guy I worked with who would leave work with his girlfriend(s) (he is married) and sometimes leave us to do his job with the public while he was gone and then he would complain about how we weren't supposed to do his job. I completely stopped talking to him except when necessary. No one would do anything about this. My supervisor would not talk to the director because she felt he would do nothing. And I didn't blame her because I think she is right. He does not care. There were other issues too that grated on me daily.

So, here I am, after a wild ride, feeling at peace, trusting that the trip I have been on is right and good and I am thankful. Wow.