[jediwill83]

Well I'm trying to spend more time talking to people that are a more godly influence.

I haven't done a whole lot of that the last 4 years.

But godly isn't the only prerequisite...I want a place I feel comfortable and at home...A place where I can relax and be vulnerable and spontaneous.

If it starts to feel like every time I turn around I feel like I'm being scolded I'll move on.

It's no threat it's just less headache.

My life has been super chaotic lately and the last thing I need is drama and more headache.

No it's not about causing trouble and not submitting to authority it has everything to do with feeling out of place and walking on eggshells.