As far as the why? He is turning 40 soon and had come to a place in his life that he had to own up to what he was on the inside. He was tired of hiding. He had been all there is to be in the religious world without contentment and was fed up with himself. He decided to come clean and be what he felt he had really always been. This is his explanation. Mine? Too long to post all of it so I will sum up with one word. Narcissism.