[HappyTown]

This is happy towns daughter.. thought I could give some input on the matter.

I myself have had experience with cutting.. through friends and my own personal problems.

For me it was a way of letting some stress and emotional pain out, I wanted others to see how much I was hurting on the inside so i inflicted cuts on myself so others would see... so they would feel my pain. It also helped me actually feel something, I was so depressed that I became numb and the only sensation that I could feel was pain.. in a sick way it felt good to me. It was also symbolic to me.... as my cuts began to heal. It was a way of showing myself that it gets better. I also liked how it felt when the cuts began to heal. Later after they healed a little, I used to hit my cuts so I would feel the pain again. Cutting was also something that I could control in my life, everything else in my life was pretty much out of my hands I felt like I was going crazy. It was like I had a secret that no one else knew about, and i thought the secret had kept me sane.

The more I cut the easier it became the next time around... I didnt ever really have the intention of killing myself. except later on when I got really depressed the thought of offing myself came to mind quite often. And the fact that I had cut before made it seem all the easier to do. Thankfully my parents noticed that there was something off with me and helped me out. My friends also tried to help me too. The only thing that really stopped me from killing myself was the fact that I didnt want to hurt my parents.

So yes cutting can lead to a fatal end. In my case I was lucky.