[Jermyn Davidson]

There are several issues making this difficult for me to just join:

(1) Healing Offerings- "You can't buy God's miracles, but just like the blind man had to go and wash a the Pool of Siloam, you're gonna have to do something too..... God will honor your obedience and sacrifice.... That little bit of money will mean nothing to you if you ever get sick and need the Lord to heal you...."

The above statements were made just today in service, justifying the "Healing Offering", separate from the regular tithes/offering.

(2) Healing Scriptures quoted between every song (MANDATED)- It's his church, as in he's the Pastor. So if this is what he wants, so be it, right? So why do I have a problem with this? Am I just being too critical?

(3) Respect- Sometimes, because of our past, I have to check my nasty attitude at the door before going into my Dad's church. When he prayed for me at the altar today, I found myself having to fight to concentrate on my prayer-- instead of the thoughts that flooded my mind like "man, this guy is a joke" and thoughts similar to this.

I do not disrespect my Dad-- at all. In fact, I left home to ensure that I wouldn't. But even now at 31, I still have to fight the thoughts that would cause me to have a "superior" attitude towards him. I know that attitude should not be there and I rebuke it when it comes.

I love my Dad and need my Dad. But because of our horrible history, I still get these bad thoughts from time to time. Does it mean that I haven't forgiven him yet?


Should I join his church again?

He sure could use the members too-- about 25 of us on a good day.