Do you think Revelations is enigmatic?

[Evang.Benincasa]

Originally Posted by Aquila

Great point, I haven't met a saint who can honestly say they're sinless, in the ghetto of a millennium.

So, you use that as an excuse to continue in sin that grace may abound?

[Aquila]

Originally Posted by Evang.Benincasa

Does Satan mess with you Aquila?

Does he and his demons effect your life currently?

Can you or have you ever cast a demon out of anyone?

Satan himself, not so much. Demonic harassment, on rare occasions. Yes, I was involved in a deliverance ministry for almost two years.

[Aquila]

Originally Posted by Evang.Benincasa

So, you use that as an excuse to continue in sin that grace may abound?

Nope. I'm sinless.

[Evang.Benincasa]

Originally Posted by Aquila

Satan himself, not so much. Demonic harassment, on rare occasions. Yes, I was involved in a deliverance ministry for almost two years.

Explain how you are harassed by demons?

[Evang.Benincasa]

Originally Posted by Aquila

Nope. I'm sinless.

That's not what you posted in another thread.

[Aquila]

Originally Posted by Evang.Benincasa

Chris, does Satan have power over you?

Nope. Not one bit. I'm not even tempted.

[Evang.Benincasa]

Originally Posted by Aquila

Nope. Not one bit. I'm not even tempted.

Pretty interesting. So what you posted in the other thread has been remedied?

[Evang.Benincasa]

Originally Posted by Aquila

I've tied a knot at the end of the rope and I'm hanging on for dear life. But, I'll be honest... sometimes just the thought of walking away from it all allows me to breath easier.

I'm not being a jerk here guys. I feel like crying. But I've cried over this for so many years, and it hasn't helped yet.

I feel like I'm drowning. And the closer I feel that I get to God in prayer, the more evident it becomes that I'm a wretch. An absolute failure. It's the most depressing feeling, I can't even describe it. It's like an utter hopelessness. I've excelled in so many areas of my life most would think I have nothing to fear or that could make me feel like a failure. But this does. And this is what has always mattered most to me. Everything else from military service to what I do for a living now doesn't mean anything to me compared to this. But this is the one thing I feel God dangling in front of me... and I've discovered, I can't ever reach it, grasp it, and attain it.

I need help. I need someone who is actually living this thing to show me how it is done. Broad theological discourses are often like communism. They sound good on paper... but when applied... it still doesn't work. Every mentor and pastor I've had was flawed. I'm not going to bash them and list the things I discovered in their closets, but they weren't living it. They were great people, but they didn't even have the victory the Bible speaks of.

I'm hurting, I'm tired, and I really want to get this with all my heart... but I'm feeling really, really, discouraged. I dig politics because it isn't so close to home for me. We can debate economics and politics all day and I can ignore the pain I feel spiritually. But the reality is... I can't bring myself to give up... but if I could, I would.

I'm no victim. I'm to blame for my condition. No devil made me like this. No preacher made me this way. But I have yet to find the secret to all of this.

I really feel hopeless today.

I am happy that all this is remedied.

[TK Burk]

Originally Posted by Aquila

Satan himself, not so much. Demonic harassment, on rare occasions. Yes, I was involved in a deliverance ministry for almost two years.

How do you know when it's satan and when it's demonic harassment?

Also, what is "demonic harassment"?

[Evang.Benincasa]

Originally Posted by TK Burk

How do you know when it's satan and when it's demonic harassment?

Also, what is "demonic harassment"?

Aquila, could you please explain how demons harass you on occasions?