What Do You Do When Your Faith Is Weak?

[Jermyn Davidson]

Really, what do you do?

What do you do when you're at your wits end about a situation, mentally drained, spiritually apathetic about it, ready to just walk away?

What I do?

I remember what the Lord has done in order to counteract the story that God just doesn't do.

I find older sermons to listen to again, to gain strength from the strong pronunciation of the Character of our God and Savior.

He will come and save you!

There is a scripture I will look up and post about fainting if I didn't believe that I had seen the goodness of the Lord in my life.

What do you do?

When it is just you and your thoughts and your own mind betrays you and your heart begins to grow cold as that root of bitterness begins to manifest itself... again?

That parent that never affirmed you.
That bully who scarred you.
That one job you almost had.
That one job you got fired from.
That loved one who passed away too soon.
That brother that wounded you.
That sister that almost destroyed you.
That battle you just lost the other day.
That shame because you knew better.
That God that you want to hide from.
That God that you want to scream at!
That thought that is fearful and strangely comforting.

That moment when it all seems to come together to tell you something that you KNOW can't be true, but it sure does seem true, in that dark, dark moment.

The Lord knows how to reach me, in that dark, dark moment.

He speaks to the little boy in me.
He tells me things... too precious to share with you on this public board.

Oh but He speaks to me.

He lets me hear His Voice.

He comes to me.

He lets me weep and He pulls me closer.

Asking why doesn't come across my mind when He pulls me closer.

I'm just glad He's there.

Then He Speaks to the man in me.

He reassures me of His Word, His Promises, His Character.

In that dark moment, He restores my soul.

He lets me see Him as my Light.

He gives me back my confidence.

Now I know, it's going to all work out.

He's going to do what I can't and maybe even a little more.

I can still hear Him say, "I got you."