How to get closer to God?

[kristian's_mom]

Maybe you guys can help me. I was raised in a UPCI church, and got baptized when I was 13. I have been out of church all through my teenage years, and early twenties.

God started convicting me, and I started to seek after him again at home in private. He filled me with the Holy Ghost at 2:00 in the morning in my office at home ,while my husband and my son were asleep in the bedroom, lol.

I go to church when I can, but it's hard to, considering my husband's job and other reasons. I study the bible and pray, but of course I could do it more often. I have this desire to be closer to God, and I don't know how. I don't know if Satan is planting these thoughts in my mind, but sometimes I feel like God is angry with me for some reason.

I want to talk about God all the time, but my husband has a catholic background (he fell in love with the UPCI church we attend, and God is starting to show him the truth) but my husband doesn't know much about the bible, and he gets tired of me wanting to talk about it all the time. Basically, I don't really have much guidance from anyone, and I don't know how to lean on the spirit to teach me.

I have been baptized in Jesus name, and I have the Holy Ghost with evidence of speaking in tongues, but I just don't feel saved. Have you ever felt this? Thanks!