Thank God for His love.

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I know God loves me and cares for me because of all the things he has done for me. I don't remember a time not loving Him in return. YET in all of these years I do not remember really trusting Him for EVERYTHING. Yes I believe He can do ANYTHING but did He really care about ME enough to want to do ANYTHING for me?
WELL let me tell you about my last couple of weeks. I have been dealing with know WHERE God wants us. Where does he wants us to be NOW or in the near future. I KNOW what I have felt but it did not go with what I WANTED. It is hard to accept at times. ESPECIALLY when what GOD wants for you is NOT what you want at all.
I have never wanted to accept doing some of the things God has wanted from me and I have argued with Him and avoided him for years. I have always had a desire to be used by God BUT not if it went against what I wanted.
Three weeks ago we sat at our pastors home after having fixed them dinner and we talked and I opened up to him like I had not done in the entire six years here. The very next week we had a guest minister here to preach and I could swear the man was sitting in that room listening to us and he preached EXACTLY what I needed to hear. He told his testimony, a young man only in his late 20's (Bro Veloz from southern CA) and I tell you it was my life he was talking about.
This week we had another guest speaker (Bro Tony Suarez from VA) and he preached another message taking me one step further. He could have been in that room listening to me talk to our pastor and also at the service last week and in on the conversation I had with our pastor and assistant pastor.
God loves me enough to send men from many miles aways to show me that He cares and to give me a confirmation.
Now you may say that I just shouldn't be so stubborn and hard headed but still He loves me even with all my faults.
Thank you God for that love. Even though I have tried to evade you and ignore You to get my way, You still have loved me MUCH MORE than I deserve and I appreciate You for it.
Now to just Love you back the way You have loved me.