ADRA- Sorry for your loss. There is not a set way for you to feel. You are you and your circumstances are unique to you. Quit trying to fit into a preconceived mold. I do think it is good for you to remember the good and bad times with your dad, but do not let those memories hold you hostage. Build on the memories to become a better you and make your family better than your family was. Use this time with your brothers and Sisters ? to remember and flush the bitterness and anger out of your system.
Adra, Blubayou gave you some wonderful advice!
There are others here too that I believe can help you that have had similar experiences.
I am sorry for your loss.
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Master of Science in Applied Disgruntled Religious Theorist Wrangling
PhD in Petulant Tantrum Quelling
Dean of the School of Hard Knocks
Adra, I can't pretend to understand the pain you are feeling right now. But I can pray for you. And that's what I am doing right now. I'm sorry for what you've gone through in your life and I'm sorry for what you are going through right now.
God is a Father who will never let you down. He will never treat you the way you've been treated. And He will always love you no matter what. He will be for you what your father was never able to be. Walk into His arms right now and be comforted by Him.
Well, I got my daughter some snow boots! Yeah!!!! They were on clearance even, I couldn't believe they were this early in the season but I won't complain! They are very very cute too. She is going to love them. I got them on my lunch hour so she hasn't see them yet.
Her very first Christmas program is tonight. I am going to take lots of pics and I will try to post them tomorrow along with some of the tree.
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The Will Of God Will Never Take You
Where The Grace Of God Will Not Protect You
Thank you all for your loive, for reaching out to me in such a loving way, for your prayers, your words that leave me feeling that I have found praying sisters and brothers. I feel warm??? (not the right word but can't think of a better one) for the first time since I got the phone call.
For the ones that pmed me-I will write you back, just don't have time right now.
Jasmine had her first Christmas Program last night for Pre-School. It was CRAZY, I didn't even know about it till Tuesday because my dear husband picks her up everyday and he failed to give me the letter with the date in it. And then I was informed that it was formal dress and in the short of time I was unable to buy her a christmas sweater to wear and then when we get there all the other kiddos were dressed all fancy. I was ready to SCREAM. But it went well and she still looked cute (wearing her new snow boots which was another battle). We had seats too far back to take pictures during the program but here are some afterwards.
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The Will Of God Will Never Take You
Where The Grace Of God Will Not Protect You
Well, I got my daughter some snow boots! Yeah!!!!
They were on clearance even, I couldn't believe they were this early in the season but I won't complain! They are very very cute too. She is going to love them. I got them on my lunch hour so she hasn't see them yet. 
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