I need someone to hear me..please...

[Bro. Bill]

I have fallen...again....and again....and again....I have a prescription drug problem and that leads to drinking and other things till I finally come to myself....I am alone..please note, I am not on a pity party, I am just tormented in my soul....I love Jesus so much and I truly want to live for him with everything in me....there are just set backs and I dont want to put negative things all over the interntet....for folks to read....I just need someone out there to help me touch God...I am full fledged One God Apostolic raised in the old ways...and I have tried so hard..but my problems seem to control me and I cant break free....is there anyone out there? anyone that will help me ...tonight? ....please, I cant lay here like this much longer....I cant...I simply am so tormented....there is no one and Ive done this to myself....please forgive me if I have placed this on the wrong site...or said anything out of order...I need you to help me. Will someone please..please hear me and help me to touch God...tonight...I will go looking for things soon if this dont stop and I dont want too.....

God Bless...
Your Friend...Billl.....

[Sam]

AA (Alcoholics Anonymous) has helped many.
Contact someone in AA.

[pelathais]

Bill, there are many causes for the types of addiction you describe. And while I personally believe in a God Who can and does deliver, perhaps seeking yet another "religion fix" tonight isn't going to be a lasting answer. I'm just guessing, but you have probably reached out like this before - even if just silently in a church meeting.

You need help to identify the cause of the problem. The fact that you've been back and forth on this is evidence that you haven't hit upon a lasting solution yet. Don't let that discourage you. You are a person of worth and the very highest value in the eyes of God. He does offer you hope even still.

Internet forums can be a way to support a recovery program, but they are no substitute for one-on-one "face time" with a trained counselor. Please make it a point to schedule an appointment with someone. The A.C.T.S. courses in many Pentecostal churches is a good place to start if that's your background. If you prefer not to identify yourself among that group, you can still call a local substance abuse line. Briefly explain what you've just posted and ask them to set you up with someone right away.

[tstew]

Praying for you, bro.

[Sherri]

Praying for you, Bill.

[CC1]

Bill I am also praying for you and will continue to do so. God loves you and wants to help you but in addition to directly touching you many times God chooses to use people to help people.

I agree with Sam that you need to enter AA to get some structure and accountibility to your efforts to stay drug free and sober. You will have an advantage over many of the other AA group members as you know how to connect to God in a way that many of them may not know how. God bless.

[Melody]

praying for direction and answers, stay strong

[MawMaw]

I am praying for you Bill.

[misspresley]

Deliverance can come thru many avenues God has provided - you must walk down them and apply the help you receive - Make up your mind that you want change and God will lead you to the ones who can help. He loves you so - don't give up!!!!!

[Neck]

I have fallen...again....and again....and again....I have a prescription drug problem and that leads to drinking and other things till I finally come to myself....I am alone..please note, I am not on a pity party, I am just tormented in my soul....I love Jesus so much and I truly want to live for him with everything in me....there are just set backs and I dont want to put negative things all over the interntet....for folks to read....I just need someone out there to help me touch God...I am full fledged One God Apostolic raised in the old ways...and I have tried so hard..but my problems seem to control me and I cant break free....is there anyone out there? anyone that will help me ...tonight? ....please, I cant lay here like this much longer....I cant...I simply am so tormented....there is no one and Ive done this to myself....please forgive me if I have placed this on the wrong site...or said anything out of order...I need you to help me. Will someone please..please hear me and help me to touch God...tonight...I will go looking for things soon if this dont stop and I dont want too.....

God Bless...
Your Friend...Billl.....

Bill, I have recently started on my journey to better physical shape. I have found my mind, attitude and spirits are up since I started. In my case I have lost 36 lbs since Feb 20th and gone from nearly 250 to 212. I understood the risk and the health history of my family but stress would put me in a position to tell my self that I deserved to eat.

Once day in Feb I woke up and went downstairs and just felt like I was just not happy with myself. I remember saying a simple prayer and all in that moment, the Lord showed me those around me.

How that being in the best physical shape and having a clear mind would equip me for more in my life.

It was at that moment that I started on my journey, now I work out at when I used to grab the cheese at 10:00PM.

Your journey needs to be one of trusting in the Lord and taking the first step that you know should be taken.

The best is yet to come!

[Ferd]

Bill, you wont get out of this by yourself. You have to have help. and to get it you are going to have to face yourself and admit publicly you arent able to handle your addiction.

But the good news is there is healing and help for you. Get that help. The people here on AFF will be praying for you!

[Bro. Bill]

Thank each of you so much for your encouragement, I have made it through the nite...I listened to a sermon in the wee hours of this morning by Bro. Jeff Arnold titled I wont die in my dilema....the internet is not a place to air out your problems I do know that for sure.....but thank you for the private messages and for your kindess....I believe that things are going to work out for the better....God Bless each of you....

[ILG]

Bill,

You need something to lift you out of your shame. I'm not sure what that might be, but, I think you may end up drinking because you beat yourself up and feel so low and you need an escape. Maybe the problem is not drinking or drugs but shame. I don't believe that God wants you to live in shame, but He wants to set you free. I will pray for you.

[Elizabeth]

Thank each of you so much for your encouragement, I have made it through the nite...I listened to a sermon in the wee hours of this morning by Bro. Jeff Arnold titled I wont die in my dilema....the internet is not a place to air out your problems I do know that for sure.....but thank you for the private messages and for your kindess....I believe that things are going to work out for the better....God Bless each of you....

So glad you made through the night Brother.

Our church is what we refer to as a recovery church and I must mirror much of the encouragement and references to getting help that others have said.

I think getting sober and staying sober is your main concern.There are many residential treatment centers around the country that will help you detox and get sober. Your county may even provide funds. After you are sober for 60-90 days the next step is a sober living environment-

We have 3 sober living homes that attend our church right now, we are faith based. We incorporate biblical principles and meetings to encourage our people to stay sober.

I am sure there is some kind of residential living arrangements in your area some my even be faith based.

Just food for thought! Will be praying for you! We all can not do it alone-we need each other. =) Don't feel ashamed, we can't get help unless we admit we need it.

[luzsilver]

praying for you bill ,