Today, I Saw One of the Most Horrifying Things...
 

Today, I Saw One of the Most Horrifying things.

I saw the vengeance of God in action.

For months I have been praying and begging God to help me overcome some horrible personal wrongs that had befallen me. I have been asking God to remove the hurt, bitterness and anger I felt toward those who reached out a hand in an attempt to destroy me and silence a quiet truth of religious abuse that I had come to know.

I had attempted (in a subtle way) to make a religious power aware of an abuse that was hurting an institution, only to be silenced in an attempt to cover the situation up. After I attempted to help, I became a target of retribution by a few who wanted to protect their personal kingdoms.

Today I saw God intervene. And in a way that both awed and terrified me. I saw God bring to rubble the kingdom of a man who sought to steal the vengeance of the Lord.

What to say?

For months my emotions have vascillated wildly between mercy and hatred.

Such an intense inner struggle.

I would have thought that there would be some glee as the wicked received just desserts. Instead, I am left sobbing and broken.

Dear God, please help me to have a spirit of mercy!
Dear God, please be merciful to those who hurt me!
Dear God, help me to have a clean heart and a right spirit!

I am left to ponder the words of Hebrews 10:31...

"It is a fearful thing to fall into the hands of the living God."

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Psalm 37



1 Do not fret because of the wicked;
do not be envious of wrongdoers,
2 for they will soon fade like the grass,
and wither like the green herb.

3 Trust in the LORD, and do good;
so you will live in the land, and enjoy security.
4 Take delight in the LORD,
and he will give you the desires of your heart.

5 Commit your way to the LORD;
trust in him, and he will act.
6 He will make your vindication shine like the light,
and the justice of your cause like the noonday.

7 Be still before the LORD, and wait patiently for him;
do not fret over those who prosper in their way,
over those who carry out evil devices.

8 Refrain from anger, and forsake wrath.
Do not fret--it leads only to evil.
9 For the wicked shall be cut off,
but those who wait for the LORD shall inherit the land.

10 Yet a little while, and the wicked will be no more;
though you look diligently for their place, they will not be there.
11 But the meek shall inherit the land,
and delight themselves in abundant prosperity.

12 The wicked plot against the righteous,
and gnash their teeth at them;
13 but the LORD laughs at the wicked,
for he sees that their day is coming.

14 The wicked draw the sword and bend their bows
to bring down the poor and needy,
to kill those who walk uprightly;
15 their sword shall enter their own heart,
and their bows shall be broken.

16 Better is a little that the righteous person has
than the abundance of many wicked.
17 For the arms of the wicked shall be broken,
but the LORD upholds the righteous.

18 The LORD knows the days of the blameless,
and their heritage will abide forever;
19 they are not put to shame in evil times,
in the days of famine they have abundance.

20 But the wicked perish,
and the enemies of the LORD are like the glory of the pastures;
they vanish--like smoke they vanish away.

21 The wicked borrow, and do not pay back,
but the righteous are generous and keep giving;
22 for those blessed by the LORD shall inherit the land,
but those cursed by him shall be cut off.

23 Our stepsa are made firm by the LORD,
when he delights in ourb way;
24 though we stumble,c wed shall not fall headlong,
for the LORD holds use by the hand.

25 I have been young, and now am old,
yet I have not seen the righteous forsaken
or their children begging bread.
26 They are ever giving liberally and lending,
and their children become a blessing.

27 Depart from evil, and do good;
so you shall abide forever.
28 For the LORD loves justice;
he will not forsake his faithful ones.

The righteous shall be kept safe forever,
but the children of the wicked shall be cut off.
29 The righteous shall inherit the land,
and live in it forever.

30 The mouths of the righteous utter wisdom,
and their tongues speak justice.
31 The law of their God is in their hearts;
their steps do not slip.

32 The wicked watch for the righteous,
and seek to kill them.
33 The LORD will not abandon them to their power,
or let them be condemned when they are brought to trial.

34 Wait for the LORD, and keep to his way,
and he will exalt you to inherit the land;
you will look on the destruction of the wicked.

35 I have seen the wicked oppressing,
and towering like a cedar of Lebanon.f
36 Again Ig passed by, and they were no more;
though I sought them, they could not be found.

37 Mark the blameless, and behold the upright,
for there is posterity for the peaceable.
38 But transgressors shall be altogether destroyed;
the posterity of the wicked shall be cut off.

39 The salvation of the righteous is from the LORD;
he is their refuge in the time of trouble.
40 The LORD helps them and rescues them;
he rescues them from the wicked, and saves them,
because they take refuge in him.

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pp, i will pray for you, i myself have seen this before, it is awful to feel and know the experience, i have always found the mercy of god to be boundless, and his grace inexhaustible, god bless you in your quest to overcome, aint never no wrong in doin right, my grand pa said, he was right and so were you, god bless you bro, dt

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I, too often, find it hard to let some injustices go.

I am learning that I've got to do it.

Life's too short to worry about some stuff.

I am learning to just move on and let God handle it.

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i understand completely bro, prayin for you, and just let the lord Jesus bathe your heart with his love and grace, you will rise to be stronger, bless you bro, dt

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Could you elaborate more? How did God execute his vengeance exactly..if I may ask?

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Question:

Is it wrong to pray for God's vengeance against wicked enemies?

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PM incoming.

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I have pondered this too, as we have been in a similar situation. David prayed for vengeance on those who had wronged him in several Psalms. But somehow, I just couldn't do it. We had to put it all in God's hands. Thankfully our hearts have healed and we are in a place of great blessing. Whatever happens to the others is up to God, not us.

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i cant give you a definitive answer on that one, i usually start recovering when i start to pray for those that wrong me, however, i find it difficult to have a good spirit if i am still harboring anger and hurt toward them so i have to let it go. He will take care of them i have learned, and does a nice job, much better than me, really, it isnt easy to let it go though, bless you bro, dt