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I'm physically broken, at a job with no future but pain and low pay, living in an area where there isn't much else to choose from. I'm mentally beaten, at my wits end, dealing with things I have no idea how to deal with without chemical help, which I'm trying my hardest to stay away from. I fear this will soon become a losing battle, and if that's the case, I'm as good as dead in every way. The worst thing though, is that I'm spiritually dead. When I look in the bible, I see nothing but judgement and fear. It's the state of mind I'm in, I can't find happiness anywhere I look. All I can manage in prayer is to ask why why why and please please please, without really knowing what the why is, or please do what. I know I'm not supposed to ask God why, but I need to find reason in the trial I'm going through, and I need to know that there's going to be an end. I'm not looking for pity. I'm just desperate for a move of God, TONIGHT. I need the help of my brothers and sisters in the Lord. Please help me to pray that I can make it through another night.

Matt

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I will pray for you, Matt. Why can't you ask God why? He's your Father, and he does have the answers you need.

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I do understand what you're going through, Matt, but words alone will not give you the healing you so desperately need right now. First, I do want to assure you that I will pray for you as well as others here I'm sure and even if you don't really believe that will help, it will anyway.

I think it's very very important, essential, to have Christian fellowship at this time in your life. Find it where ever you can, Pentecostal, Baptist, Church of Christ, where ever you can find it. Find a group of people who will offer you support and love. Let that be your focus at this point in your life, visit around, visit churches, talk to Christians and the Spirit of God will lead to to a place where you can heal and be strengthened.

May the law of the Spirit of Life in Christ Jesus rule your life beginning this moment. In Jesus name I pray.

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Why do you think we shouldn't ask the Lord, "Why?"

David was a man after God's own heart but he sure didn't have it easy.
He was chosen by God and anointed as king when he was about 15 years old. Then when he went to serve the current king (Saul) he tried to kill him and David had to flee for his life. For about 15 years he lived on the run, pursued by Saul. About 15 years after he was anointed he finally took over just 2 of the tribes and had to wait another 7 years to take over the others. While he was on the run, trying to find food and a place to stay here or there he poured out his heart to the Lord. Some times he complained and asked God why He was hiding (see Psalm 10, also Psalms 42 and 43) and at other times he expressed great confidence in God's care (see Psalm 23). David was very human and was very open in his talks (some times complaints, some time praise and thanksgiving, some times questioning and wondering). Some of us are as flawed as David. Some of us may be worse than David. And some of us may be a little better than David but we are all human like him.

God did take care of David and He will take care of you. He loves you as much as He loved David and as much as He loves all the rest of us. He demonstrated that love by giving His Son as a sacrifice on the cross so that we would not have to pay the penalty for our sin. He demonstrates that love by forgiving us any and all sin and failure if we just ask Him to (1 John 1:9). He demonstrates that love by promising us that He loves us and will never abandon us when we are down (Hebrews 13:5-6 and Psalm 37:23-24).

God loves you. Talk to Him like you would talk to someone sitting down next to you. Gripe, complain, question or whatever. You won't shock Him. He's heard it all before. Be sure and ask Him for mercy. He'll forgive you for everything you've ever done or even thought of doing. Seek out a church (one where they won't judge and condemn you) or find God's help in an AA or NA group. God is alive and well and working in AA and NA. He's changed lots of people's lives around through AA and NA.

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Matt, people here are praying for you and we care.

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Thank you all. My home church is where I belong, it's not their fault that I don't do what I'm supposed to do. Where I should fellowship I don't speak, and when I hurt I hold it in til it gets to this point. I'm just reaching my breaking point, everything's crashing down around my head. I leave for work in an hour, and as much as I hate and can't handle the job, I can't lose it or I lose everything I've worked for for the past 5 months. I don't know if I have a job to go back to tonight, I had an anxiety or panic attack last night at work and had to leave. I don't know if they'll understand, because workers are a dime a dozen around here, and jobs are short. I feel if I can just make it through tonight with a job intact, and get a good 10 hours rest (I've slept 10 hours in the past 48 hours, and with the depression and the anxiety if I don't get 8 hours a night I'm not right) then I can make it another day. That rest won't solve all my problems, but it will help me. I've spent the day crying, grieving, and trying to convince myself this is normal life, and everybody goes through problems like this. But I feel like Job with a pharisee's faith. Just one more night, and then two days off for me to heal. One 9 hour stretch.

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Amen, agreeing with Bro. Sam, in Jesus Name!

Falla39

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Matt, I'm praying for you that this will be a night where you really see the glory of God revealed in your heart and life, and His presence the only thing you find comforting.

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You know it's bad when you get depressed while reading psalms.

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Matt,
I want to mirror this advice here about visiting around and finding Christian support wherever you can find it. Going to another Christian denomination will not change what you believe about Christ at all. Our core belief is what makes us who we are. We do not have to change our core beliefs because we are seeking some kind and loving fellowship from another area in Christ's church. I am of Oneness belief, but I find some of my best friendships comes from people who are not of like mindedness, yet they love Jesus with all their heart. These people have given me more kindness, love and support because they recognize that we are all human beings...in need of love and care.

My heart really wants to reach out to you because I found myself in this same position before where at a time in my life I felt spiritually dead and unloved, unwanted and hated by everybody. Yet many times our negative feelings are deceptive. My therapist called it "stinkin thinkin". All I could do was to stand on the Word, regardless of how I felt.

God does not work by how we feel. He works by our faith, even if we do not feel we have it. Faith isn't always something we feel. It must means we believe, something we stand upon, something we act upon simply because the Word says so. Hebrews 11:1 Faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen. We hope for substance and faith is the evidence. Christ is substance we hope for, he is the evidence of things not seen. It's all in Him no matter how bad we think our life is.

I was given the advice to tell myself that God loves me just as I am...that I am as precious to Him as King David was.

God made promises to us. When he fulfills that promise is something we wait upon...something that gives us hope.

Casting all your care upon him; for he careth for you. I Peter 5:7

(I Peter 5:7)

What shall we then say to these things? If God be for us, who can be against us?

(Romans 8:31)

Cast not away therefore your confidence, which hath great recompence of reward.

(Hebrews 10:35)


If ye then, being evil, know how to give good gifts unto your children: how much more shall your heavenly Father give the Holy Spirit to them that ask him?

(Luke 11:13)


I like being blessed by the Holy Ghost over and over again. :) God loves and wants us to be happy, whole in spirit. Yes, God sent the comforter to me in some of my most lonely times and times I felt so spiritually void... only to find that God was still right there beside me.

So...I just want you to know, that you are going through some human feelings. Feelings are not always reliable. But Jesus is the cornerstone of the foundation we have. He's our rock.

Here is some affirmations to you, my little brother (by age lol)
:yourock
:dogkiss
brother in Christ :highfive
:hug4