Help...please.

[The Matt]

I'm physically broken, at a job with no future but pain and low pay, living in an area where there isn't much else to choose from. I'm mentally beaten, at my wits end, dealing with things I have no idea how to deal with without chemical help, which I'm trying my hardest to stay away from. I fear this will soon become a losing battle, and if that's the case, I'm as good as dead in every way. The worst thing though, is that I'm spiritually dead. When I look in the bible, I see nothing but judgement and fear. It's the state of mind I'm in, I can't find happiness anywhere I look. All I can manage in prayer is to ask why why why and please please please, without really knowing what the why is, or please do what. I know I'm not supposed to ask God why, but I need to find reason in the trial I'm going through, and I need to know that there's going to be an end. I'm not looking for pity. I'm just desperate for a move of God, TONIGHT. I need the help of my brothers and sisters in the Lord. Please help me to pray that I can make it through another night.

Matt