All Trinitarians are Lost!!!!!!!!!!!

[Amanah]

when I was an UC I was taught that the people who spoke in tongues, who were not Oneness didn't have the real HG, they had a devil.

No, I think they have the same HG that I have.

Do I think I have a greater understanding of truth with Jesus name baptism and the Oneness of God? yes I do, but I also am pretty sure I don't know it all.

My world was so small as an UC, we thought that we were the ultimate church, that people who had standards less then ours were lost. We even thought that according to the parable of the sower, possibly 75% of us were bad ground, and lost. And then there was an elder Sister in the church who taught that Jesus had an inner circle of 3, and we were to strive to be in that inner circle. The wheel within the wheel, the elite of the elite. I thought most of the UPC was to liberal and was lost.

So now maybe my mind is expanding a little too far in the opposite direction, and I'm seeing the possibility that there is hope for many more in heaven then the tiny little circle I once thought possible.

I'm searching for new boundaries, I don't want them as small and exclusive as they used to be, and I don't want them to stretch out beyond where they should be.

Sometimes I think the only way to find the boundaries is to shut myself off from everyone and just pray and read my bible and find the answers one on one. But God moves through his church in a way that I can never experience alone.

Last weekend, I sat in the local UPC church, thinking that being there was likely the closest to truth I was going to be able to get. The woman in front of me had her hair piled up so high that it was truly a work of art, and she had a hair thing like a huge flower sculpture sticking out of the side of her head, her suit was remarkably beautifull. My hair is still not growing right, its fragile from having gone thru chemo and it keeps breaking off, so I'm sitting there wearing a long haired wig just so people won't judge me by my hair. And I'm asking myself, God is this really where I belong? The preacher is telling us to take our wallets and empty them on the altar like the wise men offered all their substance when they came to see baby Jesus. God is this where I really belong?

I know this church is pretty liberal compared to what I came up in, I can see many people there who do not fit the apostolic identity, people at all different stages in their walk with God. Maybe this is where I belong.

My heart is breaking, I don't want to be narrow minded, closed minded, hatefull and exclusive.
My heart is breaking, I don't want to be lost either.