witchcraft

[bbyrd009]

Randy, your post speaks to me. I became suicidal at about age 12, and was surely "clinically depressed" for many years after. I attribute it now to naturally focusing on...the natural, the world, that which I am to joyfully overcome. That depression is still beside me, I am able to look at it, say "Hi" if I want, while testifying that it is no longer an intimate.

While your path through this will certainly be different, I invite you to hold an interpretation of "depression" as "that which will not always be present" in a believer's walk, which may sound trite, but the point is to believe that depression will have an end. Amen. Which might not be entirely true for you now? And yet I know you believe in Christ as best you are able, so see the dichotomy there. More triteness, but when I decided, usually first thing in the morning, that nope, I just wasn't going to go there today, and I can get glad in the same shoes I got depressed in, tyvm, that things there changed.

I was offered "depression" just yesterday, actually, after, wow, months and months of not, and had to choose, consciously, "ebb" (as opposed to "flow") as my state of mind then. I now decide what emotion to experience, and no longer experience whatever emotion presents itself to my psyche, resulting in some quite interesting little internal battles sometimes, that I am now free to observe in a disconnected way that was formerly "connected," and I'm not even sure how this changed. You are in my prayers also.