Ferd, being the "backslider" and privately agreeing with your detractors that you aren't where you should be is one thing. It isn't the same as feeling you are doing the right thing for you and your family and still having pretty much the same measure of angst, criticism and even hostility pointed your direction as a backslider. That can be immeasurably painful, and feel rather hopeless--when no one can be convinced that you're okay with God, and you know you're right in His hand.
Romans 5:3 And not only so, but we glory in tribulations also: knowing that tribulation worketh patience; Romans 5:4 And patience, experience; and experience, hope:
Trials work patience, and being patient eventually becomes an experience, and through that experience--which we survive--we learn that there is hope. Share that hope with other people.
It can be surprising when people who you thought would be your friends no matter what turn their backs over trivial issues. Yes, you've seen it happen to others, so you should have known--but you really didn't think they'd do it to YOU. That's where the shock and dismay comes in--finding out they didn't really love you better than the person they disfellowshipped a year before, and the other one that they stopped speaking to the year before that.
MrsBratt, by "backslider" I mean the same thing that is the context given here.
that is why I put it in "". Oh the stories I could tell... You dont need to explain to me what happens trust me...
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