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Originally Posted by Jay
I believe that we have all had places where we felt that the pain and agony were too much to bear.
I am well acquainted with the agony of people being blessed, and feeling that I was the odd man out. This was especially true at campmeetings, and because I was very young, I would attempt to fake my way through. I will not detail all of my experience that led to that point, but it was a painful journey, and took many years to heal. Having said that, there were many things that God started to do in and through me that also occurred during this period. God started using me in tongues and interpretation, He repeatedly reconfirmed my calling to the ministry (this was in spite of my desire), and He started to make Himself more real to me than I had ever known before.
As I do not know anything about this situation, I will say the only thing that I can. Keep your head up, your hands raised in thanksgiving and worship, your knees bent in prayer, your heart filled with His Word, your mouth with His praise, your hands filled with His work, and you feet on his path, and eventually everything will be all right.
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Good advice, but not easy to do considering what I am going through. I don't know if...well let's just say I don't know if doing these things will really change anything. I have time-tested it and still have nothing but self-inflicted pain and pain I have caused others. Hurt sucks, like I said before, but maybe it is better stated that Hurt hurts...
I am a different person. I try to walk in faith about things, but I am also the only one that has to deal with the "what's next" if it is not remedied or God chooses not to help me. I am a realist and I have to be prepared to do whatever it takes to deal with what is left after the let down.