I've Started Writing

[Sister Alvear]

I think it is often important to express ourselves...There are good people everywhere sadly there are others that abuse power...but that is not only in religion but in most things in life in general.
Sometimes we need to talk...get things off our chest...I think there are churches that are dangerous but that does not mean all churches are that way.
Sometimes we are hurt (most of us have been or if not brace up you will be) When are are hurt at first the human nature in us wants to hurt those that hurt us...but after a while we are able to look back and get the full scope...if not the full scope at least a better look at things...
It is hard to reason when we are angry...

So the years have passed and ILG is writing from her veiwpoint...where she once was and her jounney through different ups and downs and systems...

I do not know my friend presonally but I would say she has a deep love for God. However our reactions to things differ...we are all like snowflakes...we differ...

In my long journey those that have hurt me the most were and are the ones that call or called me sister...Not to long ago I have mentioned this before but our family went through a long dark trial...Sometimes on the darkest days my phone would ring and it would be someone speaking a word from the Lord...Oh, the joy...but other times it would be someone saying hard and untrue things to me...

People that I though my friend were the ones that stuck the knife the deepest...the smell of blood and hurt seemed to give them courage to stab over and over...

One day my pastor called during this ordeal and wanted to know if I was ok...Pastor, I was a missionary before all this started and when it is all over I still will be a missionary...I told him....He hung up and told his wife...Janice is ok...

I did not really feel ok...and what my flesh wanted to do to those people that were really jealous of us...I could not do (HA>>>) anyway...our ways parted and some so called friends still straddle the fence...but it does not bother me any more...I got over it...so I am sure my friend ILG is not writing with the purpose to destroy some one or some church even...but her experience...her journey...

As I get older I begin to realize we humans NEED one another...The hardest thing for us humans to do is to be nice to someone who has hurt us...at least it is for me...but some of life's most noble people such as Corrie Ten Boom, Richard and Sabrina Wurmbrand were shinning lights of forgiveness...wew..I fall short...Lord Jesus help me!

I am sure ILG will tell us how she got over things...Sure there are scars...but scars are marks of hurt and pain...

Even encouraging our friend to write does not mean we agree on her veiw point but it means we want to examine our life and heart to see if we are hurting people...

I know sometimes there are stands in life in any area that we are in that cause hard feelings...BUT we do not have to hurt people because we get some kind of kick out of hurting others...

Well...I am just rambling....