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Originally Posted by Jermyn Davidson
How is it that you were able to overcome this?
I am talking about a case of clinically diagnosed depression-- not a series of bad days culminating with a few weeks of being down on yourself.
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This a great thread as it highlights a major life lesson for me. That is the issue of thankfulness, a true attitude of gratitude, not just the obligatory "thank you" for the new blessing. Anyway, I do not have the 20/20 vision of my situation yet, that hind sight promises but I will do my best to answer your question.
I was diagnosed by my doctor as suffering from Major Depression. He also called it "burn-out depression". I went in to see him because I was always tired (I would sleep up to 15 hrs at a time), lost my energy, had migraine head aches, memory problems, lost interest in things that normally would hold it and I just wasn't feeling like myself. He told me I was suffering from depression and I argued with him as I felt hopeful and believed God for good things. Besides, God wouldn't let me go through depression. Right? For me, depression wasn't just a bout of the blues, it was a physical problem. A shortage of hormones, the doc. explained. At the time I pastored a growing and vibrant church, was teaching 3 or 4 home bible studies a week, preaching at home and out on week ends, add to that a full time job and a family to care for. I was just wore out but kept going on the excitement of winning another soul. The depression was at the very beginning of a 5 year long trial and lasted about 1 year a half. I will spare you all the details so as to not sound melodramatic, but I will say without exaggeration the thing wrecked me totally.
I overcame this thing by Gods grace, first of all. I reduced my work load, resigned my pastorate. I hated doing this but I was hurting myself and I didn't want to hurt my family or my church. I worked at forgiving those that hurt me (there were many). Out of desperation, I took meds temporarily and seen a christian counselor for a short time, and yes, they worked well for a time. My restoration was a slow, agonizing process with many steps. I firmly believe it was close relationships with God, my very patient wife and my understanding pastor that helped bring about restoration. "When a brother is taken in a fall, you who are spiritual restore such a one..." definitely applied to my situation. I found out it takes truly spiritual people to restore a broken brother or sister. Carnal people can only help so much, if at all.
Today, seven years later, Im a very different man. I am so much more happy and thankful. Gratitude has become an attitude and life style for me. I have given you the very short version of my story as there really is so much more to say about this. I HATED the depression and the prolonged trial after words but I would not trade it for any thing. Ive learned priceless lessons that will no doubt effect me the rest of my life and ministry. I have drawn closer to God and family through it all. Know this, this thing could have ended in tragic failure but I chose to cling to Jesus and he made to overcome.