Husband leaving the church. Very sad n stressed

[good samaritan]

About 15 years ago I would have been classified as an alcoholic. I laid outside of the trailer where I lived on the ground one night and prayed to God to let me die. I was so unfulfilled with life I had began to have suicidal thoughts. I mutilated my own body by burning my arms with cigarettes and other things while in a drunken stupor. I honestly don't believe I would be alive today if it wasn't for God grace. The Sunday I received the Holy Ghost has forever changed my life. After that day I had a strong desire to be in the house of God. Yes I do get a emotional high from it, but it is far more than emotion. I didn't have a preacher tell me that I must be faithful, but instead it was in my heart to be in His presence. I have enjoyment in personal devotion, but it is not the same as it is when the body assembles. I am saddened by what church means to some on here. As a new babe in the Lord I drug my parents all over a thirty mile radius to every apostolic service available. I even met my wife of now 11 years from a church service. Sure I agree, it is not always perfect, but it is our own outlook that most of the time destroys our experience with it. If I attend church with the mindset that church is just another thing that I have to do then I rob myself of the purpose. In the last six months I have had to remind myself of what I am doing it all for. I understand how people become complacent and lose the meaning of it all, but we don't have to. Here recently I cannot begin to explain all that God has done. We have seen people healed, my nine year old Son last Sunday received the Holy Ghost, and we have seen so many things in the last couple of weeks. I have gotten to the place I am anticipating every service to see what is next. This is not a ritual with me, but instead, church assembly is exciting. If church is some dead ritualistic practice it is because that is what you have made it. If people would come together with faith and expectation of a true experience with God every time they gather I think we would turn our communities upside down. I pray that the church would have revival and I don't mean the buildings I mean every body of believers. We are the Church so lets get united and quit squabbling and seek God together.