Your Turn: "Mistakes Backsliders Make"

[Esther]

Originally Posted by Michlow

It's not unhappiness that you hear as much as it was blunt sarcasm. Since I left the apostolic church, I have lost my ability to understand the mindset that is prevelent there. I don't mean to sound so rude and mocking as I come off, but it all kind of sounds ludicrius to me now.

You have been deceived by the deceiver and you don't even realize it. You are in a very sad situation.

Many reading that are probably wondering why in the world I bother to come around then, and the truth is, I am still trying to deconstruct my entire experience in the UPC

Was there nothing good about your experience or do you just choose to focus on the negative?

I wouldn't say that I hate the church, and I definately don't hate individuals, but as a whole my experience with the apostolic church (which is really the only experience I ever had with god or christianity) was horrible. And I try to figure out what made me join in the first place, or why I stayed so long.

What was so horrible about your experience?

As to whether or not I am happy. Of course I'm not "happy". I am still way too messed up to be considered happy. I was giving a messed up distrorted view of God and Christianity, and have been to somehow piece together the real Jesus from millions of puzzle pieces. Except for 99% of the puzzle pieces belong to a different puzzle, and only 1% are real. Oh, and I can't use my hands, my ears or my eyes to try and differentiate between them.

Mich did you read the Bible for yourself at all? How could you get so messed up IF you read the Bible? Not trying to condemn you but trying to figure this out???

That's kind of what I feel like, LOL

So no, this is not a place of happiness. But I wouldn't trade this journey for anything, because If I believe anything, its that one day I will end up with something real, and strong, and good.

Mich I truly hope you to find your journey to truth and happiness.