I had a "God Moment" tonight!

[Falla39]

Bro. ChosenbyOne,

At times I say things and later I see how they could be construed and for a
moment it concerns me. However it keeps me depending on my Wonderful
Counsellor. I just tell Him, "Oh, Lord, cover me, cover my mistakes! Hide me!
Hide me in Thee"" ! I forget it and trust Him to take care of it. He knows we
are yet wearing this robe of flesh. But just as He hid and covered, (protected)
His people of old, He will cover and protect us too. Forget it, Bro. Chosen!

Blessings,

Falla39

[dizzyde]

Originally Posted by chosenbyone

Good morning,

I read what I wrote last night and I had to admit that I was feeling a bit embarrassed. Some of that conversation between the judge and me was in my head. My attorney was aware of what happened and spoke on my behalf except when I had to give a statement and answer questions from the judge. She did state some of the things written last night, but many of those lame jokes only passed through my lips and never reached her ears.

Now, here is what happened:

I called the psychiatrist who had prescribed me a medication a while ago and I wanted to ask him if those could be taken to reduce my anxiety. He ask what other meds I was on, which is none, and he told me that they should have a calming affect on me but be sure that I only take two pills that day.

Well, I took the two pills as he prescribed, but I think the reason I was soon in Cartoon Land was because I took the two together. I knew that when I took them that year, I was taken three pills in the morning and three pills in the afternoon. Of course back then I had developed a tolerance much greater than the one I had yesterday. I kept looking at my poor attorney when those pills were in full effect saying, "Oh, oh, oh, this isn't good"! He probably will send me the biggest bill ever for the grief I put him through yesterday!

I could only imagine what those people thought of me when I interviewed with them yesterday. I am going to go hide now until church starts tonight!

CB1, You don't need to be embarrassed about anything!

For one thing, nerves alone can make us do and say things we regret later. Been there, done that! Also, anxiety attacks are very overwhelming, and can cause you to behave irrationally. Been there, done that as well. And then there is medication, it can really change your behavior especially if you are not accustomed to the medication, been there, done that!

So, no worries my friend, just take a breath and relax. You are fine!!

[Cindy]

Originally Posted by chosenbyone

Good morning,

I read what I wrote last night and I had to admit that I was feeling a bit embarrassed. Some of that conversation between the judge and me was in my head. My attorney was aware of what happened and spoke on my behalf except when I had to give a statement and answer questions from the judge. She did state some of the things written last night, but many of those lame jokes only passed through my lips and never reached her ears.

Now, here is what happened:

I called the psychiatrist who had prescribed me a medication a while ago and I wanted to ask him if those could be taken to reduce my anxiety. He ask what other meds I was on, which is none, and he told me that they should have a calming affect on me but be sure that I only take two pills that day.

Well, I took the two pills as he prescribed, but I think the reason I was soon in Cartoon Land was because I took the two together. I knew that when I took them that year, I was taken three pills in the morning and three pills in the afternoon. Of course back then I had developed a tolerance much greater than the one I had yesterday. I kept looking at my poor attorney when those pills were in full effect saying, "Oh, oh, oh, this isn't good"! He probably will send me the biggest bill ever for the grief I put him through yesterday!

I could only imagine what those people thought of me when I interviewed with them yesterday. I am going to go hide now until church starts tonight!

CB1 I didn't have any excuse when I went up before the parole board and tried to answer all their questions. Keep in mind I was barely over 18 and one of the questions had nothing to do with my reality but had I been more mature I would have known to think before I answered. And one lady in particular I just didn't like at all, and apparently I didn't hide that very well. Because she said I don't think you are ready to be released. This was on a Friday afternoon and so of course I would have to wait until Monday to find out if I was going to be released. After thinking and worrying and being unable to sleep, on Saturday evening I was told I would be released and the next Sunday my Dad came to pick me up and I was out of there. God had to have changed that lady's heart because I don't think I would have been released otherwise. I know my family and others were praying for me. We are praying for you CB1 and know that God will always work to our good. Keep the faith brother.