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#**991** 04-04-2007, 09:21 AM

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Originally Posted by Margies3

We've got BOXES of junk on the workbench in my garage. I wanted to donate it all to the youth group rummage sale. But my 13 year old wants to get together with my mother and have a garage sale instead. I told them it has to be done SOON and I don't want to have to lift a finger for it!

So already today, I've added a whole ton more stuff to the pile. If they're having the sale, I'm going to be busy cleaning out and tossing. I cleaned the family room today. Got rid of lots and lots of toys that no one wants to play with anymore. Hooray!! Next to tackle will be the front coat closet. I can't wait!!! You have to understand that Walt thinks it's a terrible to sin to get rid of anything - anything at all!!! Even if it's broken, he thinks he should save it for parts down the road. OMGoodness!!! I, on the other hand, am a tosser.

Sis not to one up you there...but we have a storage unit that is 32feet long and like 11feet wide with an upper floor that we built because the unti it so tall also and it has a narrow path going though it...there are things in there I have not seen for 20 years....many treasures that I had in our home in Eugene, but we were on the road with my husbands job for about 10 years and sold our home everything had to go into storage...we had two units to start with and we have narrowed it down to one..when we go out there to work...it becomes overwhelming....lol...but one day we really really need to clean it out!!!! I could be rich probably with all the money I would make! OH mercy! I really hate to think about it...the rent is more than resonable, but still it's money lost! Good on ya, I hope you make a fortune....well a little one anyway!

Michlow · #**992** 04-04-2007, 09:43 AM

Morning Ladies (and Ron)

I am feeling a little more talkative today then I have of late.

You know how everyone always comments on my straightforwardness & Transparency? Well, for the past couple months, I haven't been much ready to be open about all the stuff that I was dealing with.

And because, I am no good at NOT being transparent, I found it easier to simply either avoid the forum or just lurk and not say much. But I am ready to transparent now, though I feel I should warn you, that you might be a little shocked by somethings I say, and you might rather

I expect some will be concerned, even if I tell you not to be

But I'm still Mich, underneath it all.

#**993** 04-04-2007, 09:53 AM

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Originally Posted by Michlow

Morning Ladies (and Ron)

I am feeling a little more talkative today then I have of late.

You know how everyone always comments on my straightforwardness & Transparency? Well, for the past couple months, I haven't been much ready to be open about all the stuff that I was dealing with.

And because, I am no good at NOT being transparent, I found it easier to simply either avoid the forum or just lurk and not say much. But I am ready to transparent now, though I feel I should warn you, that you might be a little shocked by somethings I say, and you might rather

I expect some will be concerned, even if I tell you not to be

But I'm still Mich, underneath it all.

Spill it here sis..

Tina · #**994** 04-04-2007, 09:53 AM

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Originally Posted by Michlow

Morning Ladies (and Ron)

I am feeling a little more talkative today then I have of late.

You know how everyone always comments on my straightforwardness & Transparency? Well, for the past couple months, I haven't been much ready to be open about all the stuff that I was dealing with.

And because, I am no good at NOT being transparent, I found it easier to simply either avoid the forum or just lurk and not say much. But I am ready to transparent now, though I feel I should warn you, that you might be a little shocked by somethings I say, and you might rather

I expect some will be concerned, even if I tell you not to be

But I'm still Mich, underneath it all.

I'm glad you're feeling more talkative. I have really missed your posts. I don't always have a lot to say myself-- but you've always been one of my favorite posters. Maybe because you are so transparent in your posts.

We love ya Mich...

#**995** 04-04-2007, 09:54 AM

Well ladies and gents...I have been here this AM longer than normal...gonna go now...has anyone heard from QE...I am praying for her...

Love ya all....bye for now

Ron · #**996** 04-04-2007, 09:56 AM

Good Morning Ladies!
I hope all is well.

CareyM, good to see that you made it to Utah.
STS Good to see ya posting.
Theresa good to see you out posting.
Where is AG?

I am glad everyone is doing well & hope that you are all blessed!

Ron · #**997** 04-04-2007, 09:57 AM

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Originally Posted by Michlow

Morning Ladies (and Ron)

I am feeling a little more talkative today then I have of late.

You know how everyone always comments on my straightforwardness & Transparency? Well, for the past couple months, I haven't been much ready to be open about all the stuff that I was dealing with.

And because, I am no good at NOT being transparent, I found it easier to simply either avoid the forum or just lurk and not say much. But I am ready to transparent now, though I feel I should warn you, that you might be a little shocked by somethings I say, and you might rather

I expect some will be concerned, even if I tell you not to be

But I'm still Mich, underneath it all.

Michlow, whether I agree or not with you, I appreciate your openness.

Michlow · #**998** 04-04-2007, 10:02 AM

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Originally Posted by Sister Truth Seeker

Spill it here sis..

I don't know that there is much to spill...lol, but here are some things that I have written to others privately that might explain a little bit of my journey:

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Originally Posted by Myself

Remember when I first joined FCF and I was kinda on the liberal side....and then went back to the conservative side?

Well, simplest way to explain is that, when I was first in church, I liked the whole black and white thing. I liked the structure, I liked knowing exactly what was right and what was wrong. I liked having all the answers. When I started questioning everything, it was a very uncomfortable place to be. I got to the point where I cared more about wanting to go back to the cocoon that finding any answers. So I tried for a long time to stuff myself back in.

I made a pretty good show of it too. But no matter how I tried to dull them, the stupid questions were still there in the back of my brain, unanswered. And trying to quench them was simply making me into one of those self-righteous judgemental church people that I have always hated. When I saw myself turning into that, I knew I had to deal with it.

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Originally Posted by Myself

I got to the point where I got so sick and tired of religion that I can barely restrain the almost automatic eye rollings.

The fights, and the judging, and the self-righteousness and the hyporcrisy. The whole church culture and the Language ("christianese").

Therefore, I have restrained myself from posting until I get through this phase. I know that its a reaction and that I will mellow out and be more in balance eventually.

I must say though, that for the first time, I understand how people can just one day walk away from all of it. Because, I have to constantly remind myself that it's not God that I am sick of, mad at, or disgusted with. But he does sometimes bear the brunt of it. (I'm glad that he's tough and can take it).

I try to make it to church at least 1 or twice a month. That is about as much as I can take, and I fully admit that I get absolutely no joy out of it. (and for what its worth, UPC-wise, I go to a very good church)

So I don't post because I think I would shock a whole lot of people, not by "liberal" ways standards-wise, but I think I am becoming liberal beyond that. I feel like I am a spiritual teenager.

I lived what I was taught, and I got to the point where I either needed to make it my own, or find my own beliefs, and I am in that discovery mode.

I suppose my concern is that to many of you, this is going to seem so sudden like "Where in the world did this come from"? But really its been there for a long time, I am just dealing with it now. One of the main reasons that I didn't really post for a long time, is that I also didn't want to be compared to a certain poster (you know which one!) who is known for constantly changing his beliefs.

Michlow · #**999** 04-04-2007, 10:04 AM

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Originally Posted by Tina

I'm glad you're feeling more talkative. I have really missed your posts. I don't always have a lot to say myself-- but you've always been one of my favorite posters. Maybe because you are so transparent in your posts.

We love ya Mich...

Well, like I said, that transparency might not be appreciated so much in the futre

But thank you nonetheless!

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Originally Posted by Ron

Michlow, whether I agree or not with you, I appreciate your openness.

I can almost guarantee that you won't Ron! But I certainly appreciate the support!

Margies3 · #**1000** 04-04-2007, 12:14 PM

Mich,

I appreciate your openness. And I thank you for sharing your heart with us. I know this was probably not an easy thing for you to do.

I do understand what you are saying. Believe me. And there are lots of things I could say. But I honestly think that this is one case where what you need most is to seek the Lord for yourself. Find out the answers that He has FOR YOU.