Ever Felt Like....

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Originally Posted by Jermyn Davidson

It was in faith that I made certain decisions that flew in the face of my own sensibilities-- but listening to sermons and using scriptures to back up my actions, believing God would fix this better if I let Him handle it instead of me doing what I knew I could do.


This is so frustrating and disappointing.


I'm done seeking to be spiritual and making dumb decisions that go against my sensibilities in the vein of faith.

He created me. He gave me a mind.

I should have made better decisions.

But I thought I was making the best decision by seeking to be closer to Him and by listening to Him for guidance and obeying Him out of sincerity.

It's just that I did this for me and Him, believing He would be pleased.

He isn't, and neither am I.



I'm reminded of Israel at the Red Sea and the Egyptians behind them.

That's how I feel right now-- I don't even know what kind of miracle can happen.

Neither do I think I should expect one.


Guys, you don't know-- but I am really, really in some deep poo.

I think that you wanted to be closer to God and I think that you will have that...

There's actually alot of great lessons in your story...

You offered your house to God. He took it and may not give it back. That's a great lesson in itself. Don't offer God something that you really don't want him to take.

You said you felt God say this: "What are you worrying about? You still have your house-- aren't I able to take care fo this too?" There are a few different ways I could explain what you heard but it really doesn't matter how we might explain it away. The bottom line is that you learned you could not trust that mystical inner voice that tells you not to worry. In fact, I think most people think mystical experiences like listening to that inner voice is the only way to be spiritual. It's not. Being spiritual often has very little to do with that type of stuff. Being spiritual is not even about the feel good emotions. Emotions come and emotions go. Spirituality should not. Spirituality can be about using the head God gave you and getting close to God can be accomplished through a great many mediums. Family, Friends Work... these are all places that we can find more of God in. God doesn't only reside in the church building. He is all in all.