Psychotropic Drugs in Religious Rituals

[Amanah]

Originally Posted by Aquila

I just want the racing thoughts to end. The fear to cease. I'm tired. I feel like a car with the alarm system going off all night. I'm so done reliving things I don't want to relive. I'm tired of the intrucive thoughts. Things that horrify me. I'm just wanting to wake up and feel my mind... still. At ease. And be able to know that for the rest of the day... I'll not be holding back this feeling, these thoughts, and smiling like I'm okay so that I don't make anyone uncomfortable.

I was talking to Chris. The kids will be with their biologicals for the 4th. Things whent really badly last 4th. Chris and I will be home. But she doesn't know, I'm already feeling the nerves. I'm already feeling that feeling in the pit of my stomach like I'm on a roller coaster. It's been with me all week. Richards didn't have to die. Everyone is going to be "Saluting the troops" and waving flags and cheering like the troops were sent away to summer camp or something. Where's Richards? Where am I? Better yet, where's Jesus? I know He's here. I know He was there. And I know that He can see me, why is this happening to me?

I'm reading what you typed and I am stunned, alarmed and void of words because all I can offer you is what you say does not work.

And all I can do is caution you against what I feel is a path to destruction.

My heart is truly breaking for you, but I'm at a loss.

(If you have friends that are reading this on Facebook, they need to keep and eye on you and make sure you are ok.)

[houston]

Originally Posted by Amanah

I'm reading what you typed and I am stunned, alarmed and void of words because all I can offer you is what you say does not work.

And all I can do is caution you against what I feel is a path to destruction.

My heart is truly breaking for you, but I'm at a loss.

He didn’t have forum ptsd until recently.

[houston]

I’m going to make a quesadilla with mild cheddar.

[Aquila]

Originally Posted by 1ofthechosen

Get on your face tell God to search you, and whatever God points out to you repent of. Pray and plead with God until the change comes. Look the Bible doesn't tell you to have some great faith, it tells you to have faith the size of a mustard seed. The thing is bro. your faith has to be be bigger than your doubt, thats how it works. It has to exceed your doubt.

Get alone somewhere, get desperate before God. Cry out to Him, and don't move until the change comes. If you are fine with staying like that He will allow you. Stop looking for all these other answers Chris. Faith has no plan B. The more you seek after these alternatives for something God can do, the more you are really telling God I don't trust you with this.

I realize it hasn't happened, God hasn't changed it. But don't lose hope keep pressing your way to Jesus like the woman with the issue of blood. However you have to get to Him, get to Him and touch Him. Keeping the desire burning knowing if you can just touch Him, you can be healed.

I know you mean well. All of those things were told to me back in 2000. Yep... 18 years ago. I've been at this for 18 years. I've held on 18 years. And it all comes back in an instant, just like it was yesterday. Every detail.

Summer bites. I don't like the heat. I'd love to live in Alaska, Canada, or somewhere up North.

[Amanah]

Originally Posted by houston

I’m going to make a quesadilla with mild cheddar.

and sour cream?

[Aquila]

Originally Posted by Amanah

I'm reading what you typed and I am stunned, alarmed and void of words because all I can offer you is what you say does not work.

And all I can do is caution you against what I feel is a path to destruction.

My heart is truly breaking for you, but I'm at a loss.

(If you have friends that are reading this on Facebook, they need to keep and eye on you and make sure you are ok.)

Everything you offer me does work. I've seen it work for others. I know it works.

I'm just still waiting here for it to work for me.

[Aquila]

Originally Posted by houston

I’m going to make a quesadilla with mild cheddar.

Man, that sounds good. lol

Post a pic. I'd like to see what you can do with a quesadilla. Maybe it will inspire me to make something creative tonight.

[Aquila]

Originally Posted by Amanah

and sour cream?

Oh, you're killing me. lol

[houston]

Originally Posted by Amanah

and sour cream?

Groce!

[Aquila]

Originally Posted by houston

Groce!

You don't like sour cream?

Bro... I love sour cream. I can eat it out of the container. lol