I am me...

[Barb]

I am eleven years old, and sometimes I get SO frustrated!!

I am not stupid...as a matter of fact, in some areas, I might be judged at genius level.

I have a desire to make myself understood, but it is often so hard...I know what I want to say, but putting the right words in place is not as easy as others make it seem.

I have Asperger's Syndrome.

This frustration at my inabilities leads me to bouts of anger...I sometimes hit those who love me most, and I say terrible and hurtful things. When it is over, I am So sad and angry at myself.

My anger at myself leads me to sometimes hit myself in the chest...oh man, I wish I could make it all go away.

How I wish I were like everyone else. My mind is always on the go, and it keeps me awake a night...it is SO frustrating!!

The school system says that they have done all they can for me. They tell my parents that I have learned all I can, and am in fact "unlearning" what I have been taught.

This is NOT true!!

I am learning new things every day...maybe not at the pace they think I should, but I am learning.

Why do they want to push me aside?! Is it because I talk alot?! Well, there was a time I didn't talk at all, and my family prayed for me.

I can't figure it out...

Unless you have been where I am, you just can't understand my frustration.

Who will help me?! Who is willing to take the time and extend a hand of patience?!

I don't like change...I don't understand change, but can someone work with me and show me how to accept it?!

Who is willing?!

I am me...not someone to be pitied or overlooked.

I am me...a little boy with a heart of love and a wealth of knowledge to share and to receive.

Who will help me?!